Hi, I am new to this forumn - I am a 37 year old opiate addict...have been on htem for years. This is day one for me, with no pills. It is scary, and my head is pounding, but I want this - I can't live my life addicted any longer, keeping it secret from my family, my husband, my child. I want to live, to be around to see my child marry, to grow old with my husband...never thought my life would revolve around pills - thought I was too smart for that - my dad was alcoholic, I spent many years overacheiving, and becoming the one that people look up to...what a joke....here I sit, fallen off my pedastel, and wondering how the hell I got here.
Your gonna be ok just do as you have done and take responsibility for your addiction and don't worry right now about how you got where your at just keep working on ways of getting out of it the rest will come later, just for today STAY CLEAN.
The pain will pass, this too shall pass and you will feel better.
Welcome to the forum. addiction is a cunning, baffling disease which robs us of all of our self esteem. There is a way out of your downward spiral, which starts by joining NA
Give yourself a brake, just don't get high for today, and let tomorrow take care of itself.
Hi , welcome to MIP, I'm glad you made it. Try your best to have a great Thanksgiving. There's no need to lie to you, you know the truth. Its not going to be easy. The good news is it DOES get better.. Your physical pain will subside. Your mental anguish over your perceived joke of a life can be overcome. Spiritually you can heal. This all begins by not using today. Most if not all of us have been where you are, We understand. Welcome home, You need never be this sick again. NA hugs Anthony G
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The fundamental delusion of humanity , is to suppose that I am here and you are out there .
I hope you made it through thanksgiving okay and managed to have a good one. I know where you're coming from. I am a recovering opiate addict myself. I can assure you that the hardest part is making it through the initial withdrawals but you only have a few days of that. Afterwards you'll probably get really emotional and down on yourself but just keep your head up.
Without knowing anything more about you other than the fact that you love your family enough to want to retake control of your life, I can tell you that you are a wonderful person.
Remember that you have to want this for you, not just for your family and unfortunately that in order to get what you want you must be willing to suffer. Some would tell you not to think of it this way but I considered it paying penitence for my sins. Anyway I'll be praying for you, and wish you all the best.
today is day 4 of being clean.....I feel much better today, not so headachy, queasy and sick and shaky if that makes any sense....I can breathe, and smell things...weird, but I have been "stuffed" up for so long that this is new to me...
