first time posting...opiate addict in 1st week of sobriety for over 8 yrs...just had the biggest scare of my life as almost lost professional licensure...did lose job though as an end result of long term addiction and all the lying bullshit that goes with it...3rd one in less than 2 years becuz of addiction/behaviors etc...now risk losing everything financially (home, especially)if i cant get a new job and damn quick all while staying straight and learning how to live like normal people do...i was one of those normal people for over 30 yrs before getting stuck on the pills....hardest part is getting used to not reaching for something to get through a regular day...dont even have any stressors at the moment...at mom's house so being fed and kept company...child is with daddy so no time for any excuses this is hard to do but my determination and the wake up call i recently received will help me keep on keepin'off the pills...
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The day was old, the light was dim As I stepped through the door And all my friends were gathering That day that I recall I shivered and shook, Lord I stood Just waiting to chase the fall I wondered how my time would be When spring comes round, once more
Welcome, and congrats on one week of cleantime, keep the miracle alive, it doesn't matter if nothing else changes, just don't use no matter what, every single clean day is a victory for us addicts, the more we stay clean, the more freedom we experience
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
thank u tahir...finaly someone read and replied! too bad i dont have a computer at home cuz i could see how this is helpful... peace n blessings
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The day was old, the light was dim As I stepped through the door And all my friends were gathering That day that I recall I shivered and shook, Lord I stood Just waiting to chase the fall I wondered how my time would be When spring comes round, once more
Wake up calls are painful truths but also blessings, painful as they can get you can get past all of this termoil and unmanageability .
Congratulate you on staying clean now for a week every day like Tahir says is a miracle so keep it alive and keep it going.
Be patient and be vigilant each day and each moment you can get past those tough moments by having faith with will give you strength and courage to face your addiction and all it's facets, and there are many.
One Day at a Time Justtina glad you found us post when you can.
