I haven't posted on here in a while, i've got over 4 months clean and sober (my longest) i'm in a sober living home right now and everyone just went home for a week, i stayed because i don't want to risk going back there just yet, so i've gone from living with 14 people to being completely alone, and my sponsor is out of town too.. i wasn't expecting to feel this depressed, it's got me really off guard, i'm not sure what i'm trying to accomplish by posting this, but yeah
Good for you for your choices. Depression is my best friend! If I stayed on the mountaintop all the time, I'd die of heatstroke. I actually do choose joy, I actually do take an antidepressant, but the old farts in recovery helped me train my mind so that the shitty feelings don't keep me frozen as long as they used to (god damn, I used to cry all day....not any more). If you had one wish granted you, what would it be? I asked my husband that, and we now have a hot tub (smile).
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I think people are full of guile.....I enjoy that.
Hey is there a neighbor who would like there dog walked? Is there some place you can go to near a river or the sea? Take yourself to a movie or book store.
You can reach out Scott and give a friend a call find someone who has some time on there hands too.
Dont feed the depression this is a good opportunity to get creative.
Don't forget also...there's a Higher Power there with you, so you're never alone.
I've been writing my Higher Power a lot of letters this passed week. There's step work, reading, playing online, all kinds of stuff. Like V said, get creative...draw, write, paint whatever (even if you aren't great at it, it's still kinda fun to do).
Plus, there's always the phone...the 500 pound phone...work your biceps out and pick it up.
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"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~Oscar Wilde~
Hey Scott, I am sorry to hear how you are feeling right now. I can truly relate. Just remember, as I always have to. This too will pass, things can only get better. How can I say that? Because your clean and sober! You have an awsome new life to look forward to.
Hey Scott, I am sorry to hear how you are feeling right now. I can truly relate. Just remember, as I always have to. This too will pass, things can only get better. How can I say that? Because your clean and sober! You have an awsome new life to look forward to.
you bring up a very important topic and a lot of people have given you great repsonses. If you can hit as many meetings as you can, journal etc. Its a great time to work on your personal recovery and what it means too you. keep coming back and keep posting!!!!!!
Hang in there Scott. One of the daily meditations from the Just for Today book is about Loneliness vs. Being Alone. This might be an opportunity to reflect on this. The Text also talks about how MUCH of our loneliness is being replaced by the love of the Fellowship. I'm 55, divorced, no kids, and when I got clean 5 years ago, I lost all of my so called "Friends." I went through a period when I even envied the people in the meetings who were sharing about all the pain their relationship was causing them. Over time I came to know the power of the Love of the Fellowship, for true. I remember my Dad telling me once that if a man went through his entire life and had ONE true friend, he could count himself lucky. Today I count myself very lucky, indeed, for I have many friends who ARE true friends, people who want nothing from me but to see me do well and get better. These are the healthiest relationships I have ever experienced, because I"M getting healthier. Hold on, keep growing, and watch as you become a magnet to people who will want what you have to offer. It's a great way to live. Good luck, Dan H
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"With a sweet tongue of kindness, you can drag an elephant by a hair." ~Persian Proverb
plus I have 4 cats that keep me good company
