I am a "binge" addict who is just now recognizing how my using effects my life. I am scared of never being able to do different and feeling terrible about myself as a person and a Christian. I picture future weekends and my friends and wonder how I will ever do different...then feel bad about myself and ultimately my life. I know I am feeling sorry for myself but could use any "words of wisdom" you all have to offer.
Get into meetings daily and make new friends to hang out with clean and sober. That's the power of the fellowship of these beautiful programs is the love and companionship we find in the rooms (meetings). Get to meetings, raise your hand when they ask if anyone is new, let them get to know you. Ask who's going out for coffee, dinner, lunch, breakfest, a movie, bowling, picnics..... tons of stuff to do within the program. So much so that you won't have time to feel sorry for yourself.
I had a 2 year old when I began my recovery. I didn't want him to grow up with an addict/alcoholic for a dad like I did. What I found was a lot of activities that I could take him with me together with clean and sober people having fun without drinking or drugs. He's 21 now and it's very humbling when he reminds me that he has 2 more years clean and sober, then I do
codependent, you are bringing up some fantastic issues. keep coming back . everytime you touch your keyboard i learn something new about my addiction.. thank you.
__________________
" If you have built castles in the air , your work need not be lost ; that is where they should be . Now put the foundations under them . "
