i haven't been around for awhile...was recently in the hospital for doing something stupid that (or trying to do) that i immediately regretted...i've struggled with depression since i was 19, am 51 now, and here on my 3rd, and last recovery, it's been worse....but, i've got 8 months today and things are looking up...
to any of you having trouble, and i still do, to some degree, everyday, i guess i can think of some things that i know are not new...but....i don't even think about "one day at a time," for me a lot it's 15 minutes at a time....now, i try to think of all of the good things in my life, my three wonderful children, my husband of nearly 23 yrs, my (generally) good health...the years, i hope, ahead...
music has always been a great comfort for me....i am a huge Steve Earle fan, you folks may not know his music, but he hails from the same area in Texas as do I, we are "old timers" together, he even has 2 years on me! during the first month of my recovery, when i was so sick, i had my MP3 player loaded with all of my CDs and i had Steve going non-stop...i still listen to his music everyday, since i've been home 20 yrs with our children, i sometimes listen ALL day!!! he is also a recovering addict, heroin and crack, and he has 13 yrs clean...his story is very moving, he's a great inspiration in my life...
i saw him on his current tour here, in Minneapolis, in March, he was, of course, incredible..now, they are coming back to Minnesota in July and I am going to that show, it's about 3 hours from us, a girlfriend and I are going up, will stay overnight, she's not that familiar with his music, but is just a huge lover of music in general...
so, i look forward to that, and to a lot more in my life now....things are not perfect for me at this point, but life is better clean...i have an incredible NA group...i am feeling more like myself since i started using 20 yrs ago....
take care all...don't expect too much too soon though....you have a lot of good years ahead....
Congratulations on your 8 months worth of miracles just hang in there it gets better and better the further you get away from tht former life, just work this program to the best of your ability and then some :)
