been a while, lots going on in my life, our resident passed away at work, he was 47..so been dealing with that and a boss who is seriously grieving.. still after over a month is wearing black everyday, each grieve in their own way, i can only pray for her and do.
i've missed you, i've missed posting and hope to be here more.
the 28th of march was 15 months clean for me :)
i am so glad to be alive, clean and in recovery.. ditto for having MIP to come to and you.
GOSS I was going threw separation anxiety and abandonement issues but thank my higher power for getting me past it and now she's back finally, thanks for helping me work on my issues WENDY
lol Vinni.. anytime?? Hsd to take my hands off the oars and just go with the flow.. didn't get outta the boat though. :)
how is it going in the meeting room with the chairing issue??
I have some work issues going in in that my hours have been cut, and i have managed to pick up hours at my other starting this monday but in the long run will have longer days. And...i did manage to take sundays off from both places. that started today..seeing as i haven't had any days off it ..;.today i spent it running around .. so it didn't feel like a day off...sigh Question?? How do you fit everything in to your day that you NEED to do???.. not to mention what you WANT to do.. I wasted so many days getting wasted.. and its not like i';m trying to catch up i'm just doing what my HP (i think) is putting in my path. I've been working pretty much every day for the last year, i'm a bit tired but i'm good. I just don't seem to have time for what i WANT to do.. i don't know if i\m making sense or not.
One thing at the top of my list is to get my a$$ going on my step 4.. how have you incorporated working this step into your life?
I feel a bit overwhelmed trying to figure it out..its keeping me doing NO step 4work..
We have some issues getting the meetings covered and will soon have more as one person will be going back to work not probably not available as often, jaysonC has some bad days with his cancer and this is getting into my busy season and why I usually only take on one meeting a week is so I don't get to buried in this I have to work on obsessions dont want to obsess about whether meetings are covered every night I just have to hope things are which they aren't always. SO if you have a night you would like I can see about getting you set up just let me know what works for you.
Step 4 cleared away a lot of wreckage I had been carrying around for a long long time, I finally faced theses things thru working it more then once, little by little I finally dumped the whole closet out and found some relief and some self acceptance and faced who I was . And thats made me OK with Vini sure I made mistakes and did things I shouldn't have done to others and REACTED and over reacted and got things out of proportion or just plain wrong. I was hurtful in my addiction thats the main thing not just to others but myself i held onto resentments that kept me high kept me using because of how I felt about myself.
Like to say its all changed but sometimes i comes back but now I am aware of myself and stop that insanity so thats how it works in my day to day living.
I WANT to gold prospect 24/7, I HAVE to work in order to do that, I haven't found he motherlode YET and when and if I do I can guarantee I wont be painting ever again LOL I do what I can do and try not to get over booked it happens and I make a list and check it off as I go try to keep up with everything and rest good at night....
and now she's back finally, thanks for helping me work on my issues WENDY
good to see U again........
