" The spiritual part of our disease is our total self-centeredness."
Basic Text p. 20
What is self-centeredness? It is our belief that the world revolves around us. Our wishes, our demands are the only ones worth consideration. Our self-centered minds believe they are capable of getting everything they want if only they would be left to their own devices. SeIf-centeredness assumes total self-sufficiency.
We say that self-centeredness is the spiritual part of our disease because the self-centered mind cannot conceive of anything greater or more important than itself. But there is a spiritual solution to our spiritual malady: the Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous. The steps lead us away from self-centeredness and toward Godcenteredness.
We strip away our delusion of self-sufficiency by admitting our own powerlessness and seeking the aid of a Power greater than ourselves. We acknowledge the bankruptcy of our self-righteousness by admitting we've been wrong, making amends, and seeking knowledge of what's right from the God our understanding. And we deflate our overwhelming sense of self-importance by seeking to serve others, not only ourselves.
The self-centeredness afflicting our spirit can be treated with a spiritual solution: the Twelve Steps.
Just for today: My guidance and my strength comes from a Higher Power, not from my own self. I will practice the Twelve Steps to become more God-centered and less self-centered.
Wow, I need that advice today. My brain has been running a million miles an hour with all the things that I could do better if my co-workers, family, friends etc would just leave me alone and let me do things on my own.
I have been wasting time with bad feelings towards people that are just trying to help me and have good will towards me.
Thanks for the reminder.
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God is the only one you can depend on in recovery.
SInce the fall of the human race back in the garden of eden with Adam and Eve. We have all aquired the Sin that came from that fall. But there is redemption today that can bridge that Gap. If you are looking for a new way to live go to my private box and I will share it with you.
No one forced me to smoke my first cigarette, or drink my first drink, or even take my first hit. I chose it just like I choose everything else in this life good or bad. Being self-centered is taking time away from doing something for someone else instead of myself. Focusing on others instead of me.
PRAYING for others and focusing on them instead of me is growth. I haven't perfected it! I still whine to Daddy God and ask for things. But, I also ask for him to Bless my neighbors now instead of curse them like I used too.
Today, I choose to help more people than I did when I was out there selfishly not caring about anyone to aquire the Worldly pleasures that I thought so important. I got everything I wanted and sacrificied me to get it. That is the truth too. I got the men I wanted, the money I wanted, the cars I wanted, the houses I wanted to live in.
Today, I have a loving God, Peace, Sobriety, Recovery, a sweet husband, Son, family, a Church family, a little ministry to prisoners, 2 sweet German shorthaired pointers, and a quiet life. I don't have frills, thrills, caous, or insanity. I have a simple life and The Lord is my King.
Anytime you have a greivance towards your fellowman or woman. Pray for them. Pray for them over and over again. Until you finally stop hating them and love them like your father loves them. It isn't easy! It is easier than harbouring self-centeredness, hatred, anger, and all the negative emotions that make us sick not them. It also opens up communication with your heavenly father. I beleive what God says to be truth. If you forgive your brother, God will Forgive you. If you don't forgive your Brother God won't Forgive you.
Please don't get ruffled at my beliefs they are mine, and others like me and they work for us.