I was in long term treatment my first time , I had a dream one night several months into the program. I was canoeing down a stream and the water started getting swift, I tried paddling towards shore but the current got stronger and stronger pulling me towards a falls.
I could hear the crashing of the falls and see the water vapors rising up from the edge, as I got closer and closer I began to panic, then finally I was swept over, sailing threw the air and down.
Then this hand came up , out of the vapors of the water and caught me and just before waking a voice said " I will always be here to catch you when you fall".
I have never forgotten that dream, tonight I made a picture using several others pics of what exactly it would have looked like in my dream, from a viewers perspective of course.
Looking back over the years since then I fell many many times and I always believed God was somehow watching over me even protecting me, this I believe was my first concept of my God threw this dream, I was about 22-23 years old.
I believe today also in angels who intercede and help and fight demons I guess I am a real Catholic at heart LOL I was raised Catholic but I didn't learn or find my God threw that church I found it from within, he came to me first.
I always knew my whole life would be a struggle, sometimes it tough to bear and I wish things were different and I was just normal, might make living easier but thats not my cross to bear, my journey is mine and it fits i somewhere amongst others whom have probably had similiar dreams and circumstances so i'm not unique but we are all special, we all get to get on the short bus LOL...
Just felt like sharing that, Blessings and angles watch over you all this day and life long.
Thank you Vini for sharing your dream, and for sharing an image similar to the one you dreamt of.
Yes, we are all on a short bus, but indeed my journey is mine. That makes a lot of sense when I think of it more and more now
I've had a few clairvoyant dreams myself that made similar impact on me subconsciously. It also took me quite sometime for me to realize the significance of those dreams in my wake conscious.
In context with what you shared about angels, I once read in a book that each of us is blessed with many angels, awaiting for us to just reach out and ask for help. Today I've come to believe this, and when I look around me to see how everyone and everything helps me live day after day, there's no doubt that it is true. There are many angels in my life today, around me, at home, at the fellowship, everywhere. And yes, my demons also have helped me immensely in my growth, throwing light on what would happen to me when I let them dance over me... lol...
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i to had a dream.. a few years ago now... was the first night IN treatment, yet the middle of my treatment time as i did 3 different centers in succession. i woke up disoriented.. didn't know which way to the bathroom, the support worker pointed me in the right direction, and went i came out i didn't know which way my room was..finally back in bed..i was in that state of conciousness where i wasn't sleeping..wasn't fully awake. next thing i know i'm dreaming of water..i can see a city, downtown background on the other side of the water, and in the middle of the water is a human form yet he is made of water..he has long hair and a kind face which is smiling at me. I fully came to with a startle :) Freaked me out somewhat.. i call that my second spiritual experience. The first was in the second treatment center.. they had a deck out back where we did majority of our smoking..i was out there by myself, beautiful summer day, laying on a bench reading a book about angels, i got to the end of the book where there was a contract to sign to allow my angels into my life. So laying there i wrote my name with my finger on the wind...next thing i know i can see angels in the clouds...i give my head a shake and sit up... look again...now i see 2!!! rub my eyes and look again...yup plain as day, the cloud shapes were angels! i go running inside to talk to the cook who became a good friend of mine.. and tell her what i saw...she says with a big smile..oh Wendy...He let you see them!!!!
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Today, everyday, that i wake up clean i look at as a spiritual experience..and everytime i GET something, mentally, emotionally, spiritually i see it as a spiritual experience. I also look forward to the spritual experience i am sure to get when i complete the stepwork, ;)
I wasn't raised with a God or any religion. My HP to has come to me as a result of getting clean.
And yes Tahir, i try to remember to treat everyone i meet with respect and dignity, ya never know when they might be an angel in disguise...i think thats a song... i like it!!
Thanks Tahir and Wendy I appreciate the responses.
Today just trying to recognize my Blessings we have all come so so far from those places and those times, so much time and space and events to think of.
But alas, we have this day what a wonderful day it is too I am heading out to the river gorge, the river excites me I get to go get wet and dirty and play today and i am so greatful.
I read not long ago something someone wrote, God being a spirit this must be so , his spirit is working threw others every day, everyone here are angels we're all filled with that spirit.
Thanks for sharing your dream. The image you created is fantastic!
I don't know anything about god or angels (although I may have met one once) or demons or religion or any of that, but I do know that I'm really glad our journeys have intersected during this brief period of our lives.
Yep, life can be quite fubar sometimes, but it's always temporary. After all, life is a mystery-adventure; you never know what's going to happen next.
Great Vini,, what a sequence,, reminds me of the time in about 86,, there i sat ,nodding on smack and tabs,. The jazz had got over on the radio and it was well past midnite. And then it happens= i see my soul has left my body and gone to a coner at the roof of the room. Then IT looks down at ,me and says in a Silent Voice "you are going to die" "nooooo" i shout out loud and wake up,, theres the satic from the radio, witness to an awakening !! a moment of Choiceless Awareness for me !! That i need to do something about the problem, perhaps the first time in my life i actually conciuosly surrendred the addiction problem to God !
-- Edited by Raman at 05:00, 2008-01-19
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Good one Vinnie, nice work on the picture. How do you remember dreams that long? I have a hard time remembering anything from those treatment days!!!
You are right, every days a good day as long as you get your eyes open.
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Thanks for sharing that Raman you were defintely being called on, what a good thing too.
Ken that dream was so vivid, I remember waking up and turning on my side lamp and sketching out the dream , I looked at it daily for many days.
I ended up leaving that program walking out with a girl I was in lust with :), I was the house manager and was being offered a position and college training to be a counselor and I walked out one day and was loaded within 2 weeks again, the girl I left with was loaded that night it broke my heart knowing she only left because she wanted to get loaded not for us to be together but live and learn.
I think what really got me to a turning point was something my Dad once said to me, he told me I was the type of alcoholic drug addict that only one thing would change me and that thing was fear, I laughed at him when he told me that years ago, today I agree it was fear, I was dying and I was told exactly how I was going to die by a doctor who had seen me several times after OD'ing on drugs and alcohol and I just didn't want it to happen that way.
So not the last time but probably the most sincere time I got down on my knees and pleaded for help, and I meant it.
I read that at some point we get honestly tired of the results of our drug use that at some point its just not worth all the heart ache, then we may be ready to stop, quit and give something else a chance to work, my recovery is far from perfect but I would not be alive today if I hadn't gotten down on my knees, and then after falling over 5 years later doing it again.
I don't ever want to have to use again I never want to have the type of thinking that the only thing left for me to have peace is to use because that would be a lie, I have found something greater today then the need to run and hide from my feelings and what i'm feeling today I have the capacity to be one with them as painful as they may be I don't have to use no matter what .
