One of those Days where i'm happy for no other reason than the fact i am healthy and alive..

I was at a meeting the other night, one that i hadn't been to before that my sponser took me to, and it was HUGE.. and i hate being in big groups of people i get anxious and nervous and i turn to my sponser and i said "I can't handle this many people".. and he said "Fine, Don't handle it then, just let it go" .. and i just laughed cuz it was such a smartass thing to say.. but it also made so much sense, and i just took a deep breath and let it go, and ended up really enjoying the meeting a lot without being overly anxious..

i got a raise at work, 25 cents! oh baby! i know that might not sound like a lot to some of you guys, but that is huge for me right now.. very happy

i'm meeting up with a friend this weekend, actually one of the best true friends i've had.. i'd call him up when id spent all my food money on dope.. and he'd buy me McDonald's, and come and pick me up when i was too messed up to drive, and let me crash at his place when home was too much of a hostile environment.. and shit like that.. but i'm really excited to hang out with him and show him how much i've cleaned up, and i'm going to be the one buying HIS dinner! hah! i can't even wrap my mind around the fact that i actually have money today and can afford to spend it on other people and not be selfish

life is good right now you guys.. i hope you all are doin okay too

-love scott

p.s. i look so cheesy in this picture.. smiling doesn't look natural on me haha

-- Edited by Scott at 20:42, 2008-01-10