i decided i'd check in because it's almost Christmas and let ya know how i've been..
i'm doin okay, not particularly happy, not particularly depressed, just okay.. i made a stupid choice today and went into work strung out.. they sent me home early and canceled my shifts for the rest of the week.. when my manager approached me i just told him that i drank the night before and that i was hung over, he pretty much just said don't do it again, so it wasn't that serious, but i don't intend on making that mistake again..
tomorrow i have to spend Christmas day alone because my parents are in illinois with my grandparents, i couldn't stay because i had to work.. but i'm not working now so it kinda sucks.. this will be my first christmas alone.. and i dunno what i'm going to do.. kinda depressing ya know.. almost as depressing as watching my savings account go down the drain.. and now i have to figure out how i'm going to have enough to pay rent now that i won't be getting a paycheck for this week.. whatever..
anyways, i'm plodding along just fine.. i hope all you have a great Christmas with lots of presents and good food, eat extra for me vini!
(((((NA Hugs Scott))))) So glad you're back, stay with us my friend
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I've been eating enough for like 4 people lately so got you covered Scott, BUT I really wish this Christmas that the gift would be given unto you my friend.
I just heard tonight that a young man my girlfriend knows OD'd and is now in a coma on life support and will die soon, he had been clean for some time and relapsed this all happened his first day back out using, he is 22 years old.
I am always around and would be happy to give you a call tomorrow sometime, email me your number if you'd like to chat a bit.
