ok so im working out of the step working guide and the first question in the denial part goes like this "have i given plausible but untrue reasons fo rmy behavior? what have they been?" and im supposed to be past this, so i dotn wanna ask my sponcer cuz she'll yell! ha but im trying to get caught up on my step work... can anyone give me a little help here?!!?!? PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha thanx jenn d
basically I think it means do we make excuses for our behavior thats believable but not really true. Like in my using I would make any excuse to use, it was a holiday or it was friday or its been a tough day or its been a good day lets celebrate, or I've been good the past couple of days I deserve it etc etc etc. I would talk myself into using and completely justify it in my head. Denial.
In recovery, well I haven't really been clean long enough to recognize my addiction manifesting itself in other behaviors yet, though I'm pretty sure I've been eating too much since I got clean. But since I was strung out and skinny I haven't been too worried about it yet. although that right there could be one of those 'plausible' excuses! hmmmmm
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There is no pace at which you should work the steps. you are where you are. don't ever be afraid to ask or share with your sponsor.. taking the steps is like a journey through the woods. and you wouldnt go with out a guide. so make sure you ask your guide. and remember as addicts we have a way of blowing a situation up in our head to be worse than it actual is or worry about what someone is going to say. So make sure you ask your sponsor as well. thats why they are there. glad your here
