Wow, tonight was - is amazing, found a new meeting, there was so many young people, and people that were like in their early 20s with years and multiple years! I got invited to go wake boarding with some of them on the weekend, and i got some numbers ill probably use for the first time since i've gone to meetings, and it was a great meeting, right now im hanging out with some kids i met in one of their dorm rooms, they party from time to time, but they aren't out of control like everyone else and they are really cool, im positive as hell, i know i'll probably feel real depressed or angry in the near future but im just going to try to hold on tight to this great ass feeling right now, kenh, your co-workers are not your family, or your friends, so who cares what they think, and if they are people that you used to be friendly with, then this just shows their true colors so F em', i dunno it's easier said than done, but a lot easier when you're positive, i'm probably just a huge hypocrite right now lol, cuz im a negative nancy, anyway i gotta stop being anti-social typing this message now and get back to hangin' with these kids
Hey Juniper, glad you found a meeting that you enjoy going to. That is a great first step. Thanks for the advice on my co-workers. I plan to just keep working hard, be honest, be responsible, treat them all with respect and dignity. They will come around sooner or later. Hope you have a good time wake boarding with some clean friends. Keep working hard on your recovery it is worth it and it is probably the most important task you will take on in your life.
Kenh.
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That's awesome Juniper, its amazing the opportunities that being clean opens up. And I never realized it could be so Fun! Thats awesome that your makin some connections and doing some fun things with clean people.
Since I got clean I've been doing things that normal people wouldn't even have a problem with but for me have been like some kind of surreal trip, I was even a bit scared at first. Like going to the lake and fishing, and tonight after the meeting a bunch of people from the meeting are going bowling, and I'm taggin along. LOL bowling??? I haven't been bowling since I was like 12. But its called cosmic bowling and they turn off all the lights except a blacklight and the balls are all neon so they glow. It sounds too weird so I'm sure its going to be fun. And I've also taken up knitting (which I'm pretty sure excludes me from ever being cool again lol, but i love it!)
When i was using the only recreational things I did was look for drugs, use drugs, then back to looking for more drugs. I certainly did not have time in my busy schedule to go bowling or go fishing at the lake.
Life without drugs can be fun! And if we work the program, it only gets better from here (((hugs)))
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Righton Juniper hang with non users for awhile though get some recovery under your belt before you start hanging with anyone who's using its just better to avoid all of it for awhile ...
definitely , try to stay away from people that are using for awhile. i know there is a better chance of me relapsing if i am around it. Next meeting you go to if its an NA meeting listen to the reading of just for today. Trust me. Good job on the one week cat daddy
-- Edited by addict named mike at 18:34, 2007-08-23
So i decided to reward myself today for staying clean and used the money i have from not spending it on getting high, to doing something i always wanted to do, i got my lip pierced. those crazy kids these days... check it out tho! http://hs.facebook.com/profile.php?id=518525604 my lip is pretty swollen, but that will pass, the girl i was talking about that i met here in the dorms, she relapsed tonight, so i sort of explained to her that i kinda have to distance myself from her, but that if she wants she can come to meetings with me if she wants to get serious, today was just as good as yesterday, and im not about to trade having two good days in a row over a silly relapse, no siree.
Lip pierce huh? Looks like it hurts. I don't get all that stuff, guess I come from a different era. It looks good??
Anyway, I would keep my distance from the relapse girl. She will need something from you pretty soon, you know that better than anyone. I think hanging out with her will really increase your chance of relapsing.
Life is too good on this side, but it does take some time to figure that out.
Talk to you later Lippy, stay strong.
In recovery Kenh.
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So i decided to reward myself today for staying clean and used the money i have from not spending it on getting high, to doing something i always wanted to do, i got my lip pierced. those crazy kids these days... check it out tho! http://hs.facebook.com/profile.php?id=518525604 my lip is pretty swollen, but that will pass, the girl i was talking about that i met here in the dorms, she relapsed tonight, so i sort of explained to her that i kinda have to distance myself from her, but that if she wants she can come to meetings with me if she wants to get serious, today was just as good as yesterday, and im not about to trade having two good days in a row over a silly relapse, no siree.
-- Edited by Juniper at 03:30, 2007-08-24
Good deal Scott your making good decisions and HEY you have to reward yourself along the way I do it all the time, OH HEY I invited you as a friend on facebook.
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it...
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