Heres a spiritual experience I had yesterday= My daughter and I were shopping at a Mall !! I then came to a point in the evening when I suddenly began to feel greatful,,, then I had a wonderful thought "My God,, its like i was born to be in NA!!!" Anyone relate or identify ? I believe all us addicts feel a sense of deep belonging ,,, as if all our lives we were in a "psychic state"of search for NA and once here we experienced a great sense of relief !!! Thats how I always felt,,, but now the feeling got words !!! thanks all here !!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
i can relate. I remember when i first came into the rooms it was like i was home. It was the thing that was missing that i was replacing with the drugs. everything i have that is good in my life, except my son, i got from the rooms. Now when i walk into a meeting its like a weight lifted off my back. A place where i belong and i am accepted. Thats alot for me because i never had that feeling before. Thanks for the post I really enjoyed reading it
I identify. Like Mike, from the first meeting I walked in and after I heard people sharing I realized that I belonged, that I had found my 'tribe'. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop using so I qualify!
At first I thought it was sad that the only people who i seem to be able to relate to are addicts like me, but this program offers such a beautiful way of life that now i almost feel sorry for 'normal' people who never get to experience it.
Our addiction brings out the worst in us but NA brings out the best
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Wow, thanks family for sharing those awesome experiences. Yeah, I get overwhelmed by that feeling of immense gratitude and sense of belonging in NA too.
Gotta go now, but would surely share a couple of such experiences lately next I log in here...
Coming in here this morning and reading all that you shared with me has made me enthusiastic and full of energy. Now, it's time to move on and live the day - work, errands & chores calling my attention
I love each one of you and need you all in my recovery,
Thanks for sharing this morning with me,
Hugs, Love & Light.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thanks for the great shares. It makes me feel good when I read them. I don't know if I am born to be NA, but I really do feel comfortable there at the meetings and sometimes I wish it would go on longer. I usually don't share, but I really do like listening.
kenh
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I may complain about having to go and hang out with all the nutcases and junkys but then I think WOW DUDE you are a nutcase and a junky also LOL.
Where do I belong? I know for a fact NA is one place I belong when an addict speaks I can realte 99.9% of the time I am that person I have those same emotions and feelings I go threw the same EXACT shit in my head and my life travels down the same path.
We all belong and we belong together this and other places like it we gather to restore our lives back to normal accpetable levels, it's not easy for us addicts and that is why we need the strength, strength is in numbers armys are strong and powerful we are an army fighting against an enemy and the good thing is WE HAVE A GOD on our side that can't be beaten.
"""I may complain about having to go and hang out with all the nutcases and junkys but then I think WOW DUDE you are a nutcase and a junky also LOL."""
Ha,ha,ha,,, Vini,, you make me laugh and you make me smile,,, thanks bro !!!
-- Edited by Raman at 14:10, 2007-08-21
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I guess I am in the same boat. I wish I could go to a meeting today. I am having all those stupid ideas again. I am glad that I don't know anyone here also. Damn, I wish it would go away, most days are really good, but today is not and I have no idea why everything around me is good????
Kenh.
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I am grateful today that I am an addict. W/out addiction I would have never found NA/AA. Ironic that my life had to hit catastrophy for me to be where I am today. Thanks Raman.
When I first found Narcotics Anonymous, it was like I was home, with the brothers and sisters who were there. All those addicts wanted to help me? Wow, what a concept. I am so grateful to be an addict and especially an addict in recovery, discovering all those things that were so elusive all my life. I never learned how to live among others, I just didn't fit in no matter where I went. Of course, my self will gave me no gifts there either....just lots of life experience that somedays I'm glad I went through in order to help others :)
For me, my god led me to NA and NA led me back to god....that was what was truly missing from my life....never asking for help until I was in such a mess....and once having gotten out of the mess, right back into the fire again....you all know what I'm talking about here.
Today, I can ask for help and it doesn't have to be an emergency :) I can pray my will and my life be my god's will and life....and to just live today. I can't tell you all how happy, serene and calm I am playing "follow the leader" with my god :)
Love and Hugs to all :)
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Just For Today....I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Namaste,,,(hello in Indian)!!! My dear Kenh,,, how yu doing buddy ?? remember that whetevr feelings we have in recovery will pass,,, Ive learnt to keep the good ones and let go of the rotten !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Namaste' Raman, doing better today after all the good advice. I never imagined that it would take so long to recover, and get my brain working like it used to. I do know that it gets better every day that I do not use. Shokria Brother. I will try to not have a rotten thought at all today!
Kenh
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