"As we recover; we gain a new outlook on being clean.... Life can become a new adventure for us." Basic Text, page 88
The using life is not a clean one-no one knows this better than we do. Some of us lived in physical squalor, caring neither for our surroundings nor ourselves. Worse, though, than any external filth was the way most of us felt inside. The things we did to get our drugs, the way we treated other people, and the way we treated ourselves had us feeling dirty. Many of us recall waking too many mornings just wishing that, for once, we could feel clean about ourselves and our lives.
Today, we have a chance to feel clean by living clean. For us addicts, living clean starts with not using - after all, that's our primary use for the word "clean" in Narcotics Anonymous. But as we stay "clean" and work the Twelve Steps, we discover another kind of clean. It's the clean that comes from admitting the truth about our addiction rather than hiding or denying our disease. It's the freshness that comes from owning up to our wrongs and making amends for them. It's the vitality that comes from the new set of values we develop as we seek a Higher Power's will for us. When we practice the principles of our program in all our affairs, we have no reason to feel dirty about our lives or our lifestyles - we're living clean, and grateful to be doing so at last.
"Clean living" used to be just for the "squares." Today, living clean is the only way we'd have it.
Just for today: I feel clean because I'm living clean - and that's the way I want to keep it. pg. 168
I love this!! It's funny..My son walks around all day saying..Oh that's for squares..I had to smile at the living clean is for squares..about the reading..I always thought the clean part was about not getting high..But in the past few weeks I have had the opportunity to experiance another kinda clean..A spiritual cleansing..You just can't grasp what a spiritual awakening is until you have one..It's sooo weird!! You hear the words over and over and over..But untill you feel them, that's all they are..words. I thank God every day..Just to BE is enough for me today..Can you believe it?? In October I walked into this room hating myself on so many different levels..But through working steps and staying clean and prayer..and..well shit..In all reality THROUGH GOD..I have learned to love myself..It's amazing how much more you can love when you are okay with you..I now "get" it. Thanks for sharing this Vini..I'm off to court..DOH!
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God,Take my will and my life,Guide me in my recovery and show me how to live.
hey Cory thanks for the share. I can Identify a lot with that...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.