Congratulations on the big 100 Miraculous Days of Recovery, Magellan. Way to go. You rock. Glad we have you here with us.
Hugs and Love,
Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Hey Guys, Thank you soo much. I feel great, hella better than when I first arrived here. Meetings are amazing. I'm very grateful for them. I go to both NA and AA. AA ones in Egypt are in English and I feel a little more comfortable in them, maybe coz the numbers are smaller too. Anyways, doing 4 NA and 3 AA/week. I'm very grateful for your posts. Your experience is invaluable. Thank you for accepting me the way I am. Love, Magellan
yeah their presence can be distractive at times for us men, BigV, but when they share a woman's perspective of recovery, I've found it advantageous to connect to my emotional side for a change from being mental all the time, and thus get the balance right. In fact, one of the members I know keeps saying that we men are so mental and rational in our perspective that it makes it doubly difficult for us to feel the program as we are always trying to think the program... lol... For me, I could, for the first time, feel and experience the program only when I came down from my head to my heart...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I feel it sometimes and start balling like a girl LOL
Seriously though I do hang out in my head way to dammed much, its hard to connect to my heart and soul, I really have to get quiet inside but I can get there.
Yeah, I can relate. You know I was asked to share my gratitude for completing 3 years at my rehab center by my counselor. While sharing, I was so overwhelmed by the mere possibility of what has happened in my life that I started weeping uncontrollably and no matter how much I tried to control my sobbing, I was not able to stop... lol...
Felt a bit embarrassed for sometime that I wept openly like that... But later realized how important it was that I did that... It made me realize how much recovery means to me when I look back at the hopelessness I was in when I was at that rehab 3 years back. Those were tears of gratitude no doubt, and I'm pleased that I am able at all to feel grateful today.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I hear you Brother, considering where we came from where we've been its black and white.
I dont know how to explain it, its not a reservation but a hard kick of reality when I think to myself I can never use again, its like the safety net has been pulled away , I am up on the high tight rope and looking down the hard flat ground, if I fall i'm DEAD.
So I try not to think about it LOL and just stay in the moment, stay greatful and not think about how sometimes I want to use so bad so I dont have to face life, I just dont get there to that point now.
