I learned at an early age if I did not let ppl close to me I would not get hurt so when I got introduced to the WWW I thought I found heaven then you ppl became real in my life and at time I still get hurt alot lately it seems, first who I thought was my best friend no names needed, and I seem to put myself in awkward situations not really knowing what to do. But somehow you ppl are getting in more so than ppl I am around I guess I put my defenses down here I thought i was safe I was lying to myself It looks like I can't be safe anywhere so I am gonna do hide till I feel safe again now that I don't have a responsibility here I can feel free to roam see what I can find I love you all here at MIP you have became my life; but someone recently told me that "cyberspace is only a small part of the world." So I guess I am going to take my wings for a test drive and try to fly here hoping I don't crash and burn.
ok I am so afraid to get close to ppl parts of my life are consumed by fear as I work the relationship part of my 4th step I am learning the exact nature of what causes me to act or think the way I do this 4th step is really opening my eyes and with hope and a little faith it will alleviate my fear
So true. Isn't that amazing that we get to see ourselves and our life in such an enlightening perspective thru the eyes of the Twelve Steps? Sometimes I really wonder how magical the steps are when we live them.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
it will alleviate my fear 
