Last night i went to a meeting and it was a round robin about the idea of going to any length for your recovery. And personally I don't know whether I really go to any lengths, I mean I go to meetings daily if not more and i do assignments and take my sponsor's suggestions (most times). But then in other ways I sort of don't go to any lengths. I will do assignments but then not listen to a suggestion that could end up saving me a lot of grief and eventual pain and also wont jeopardize my recovery. I don't know, part of me wants to go to any lengths but part of me is still waiting it out, not putting all my hope in one spot, saving a few ounces because when i've put all my hope in something in the past, and it didn't work out, I sort of got crushing sensation in my heart. But yeah, I was just wondering if anyone had thoughts on the topic. thanks.
Definetly Maddock I feel the same way but you know don't beat yourself up over it your doing alot so give yourself credit for WHAT YOU DO.
Maybe take an inventory of what your doing and what you could be doing .
The only requirement, is a desire to stop using, hell yes theres more to it but that is #1
Some of us are lazy people i'm guilty of all charges but theres a few other things involved here. Are you greatful for being clean today? is your life better then it was before you stopped using?
I don't like putting all my hope into any one thing either thats called leaving a back door, I try to ignore that door and face what I have, whats being offered because whats behind that other door is fire and brimstone so to speak, i've taken door #2 too many times been burned.
Don't play games, put your heart and soul into this as much as possible the rewards are great if you do.
but theres a few other things involved here. Are you greatful for being clean today? is your life better then it was before you stopped using?
