Hi, my name is nate and i am 17 years old. I have smoked pot regularly for about 3 years. Back in september my girlfriend said she wasnt going to take it anymore and that i had to choos her or weed. I chose her and stayed clean for 6 weeks! The problem was i did it for her, and not for myself. After i was clean for six weeks i found out she had cheated on me a few months earlier, so i dumped her and went back to smoking. The pain and heartbreak of being cheated on was keeping me from sleeping. I started smoking every night and anytime i wanted to suppress my emotions. I ended up getting back together with the same girl, but this time i kept smoking and lied to her about it. Im a senior in high school so i get out of school at noon and have nothing to do, so i filled the time with pot. About 3 weeks ago my girlfriend and i broke up because the relationship was going stale. Again, i masked to pain by smoking. We remained good friends until last week when i was feeling honest and guilty about smoking. I told her our relationship probably went stale because i was focused on smoking and not on her. Needless to say she has lost all respect for me and does not want to be my friend. the whole experience has showed me that pot just turns me into a dishonest inconsiderate loser. I know there are better things to spend my time doing, i just need to find them.