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Been awhile~!
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Hi family! Havent been on for awhile..Was busy moving my business AND myself into a new residence...things are finally beginning to settle down now..I hope everyone is doing FABULOUS and WELCOME to all the newcomers!
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JFT October 7 Depending on our higher power
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As recovering addicts, we find that we are still dependent, but our dependence has shifted from the things around us to a loving God and the inner strength we get in our relationship with Him. Basic Text, pp. 71 =For many addicts, rebelliousness is second nature. We didnt want to depend on anyone or...
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Ambivalence
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So. The Short version. Dad died. Drugs. Rehab. Meetings. Boyfriend. Fiance. Break up. Moved home. Moving on... I would have 3 years on 1/1 except.... I drank of 6/4 I drank for my 21st birthday and last night I smoked a joint. I drank for no apparent reason on the 4th. I drank on my 21st cause I felt entitle...
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My Pain
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My pain comes from deep inside Nothing I have ever done allows me to hide..... I sit here sometimes with tears rolling down my face I would even go to say...It is hate...... Today is no different than most other days I look around for yet another place..... I think about the life that I have had Some of it go...
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JFT October 5 Ask for mercy, not justice
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Many of us have difficulty admitting that we caused harm for others... We cut away our justifications and our ideas of being a victim. Basic Text, p. 38 =Our lives are progressing nicely. Things are going good, and each year in recovery brings more material and spiritual gifts. We may have a litt...
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JFT October 6 Amends without expectations
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Projections about actually making amends can be a major obstacle both in making the list and in becoming willing. Basic Text, p. 39 =The Eighth Step asks us to become willing to make amends to all persons we have harmed. As we approach this step, we may wonder what the outcome of our amends will be. W...
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Hi and Blessings
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Am new to this board. Free based cocaine for 2 years, now c/s for 12 years thru 12 steps. Also have bipolar disorder. Am retired psychiatrist. Am working step 12 -but also re-working all steps - Would be glad to offer help, sharing, wisdom, my story, and answer any questions I can. Can also be ( if all...
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TURN IT OVER !!!!
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Sober Family Vacation
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 Just returned from a week long family vacation, my first one sober in as long as I can remember. I was pretty anxious, as previous vacations, especially over the last couple of years, have been a bust. I was worried about being on a boat for 4 hours for a wedding with my family of origin, many of whom ar...
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JFT October 4 Thirty-day wonder
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When we first begin to enjoy relief from our addiction, we run the risk of assuming control of our lives again. We forget the agony and pain that we have known. Basic Text, p. 50 =Many of us have been thirty-day wonders. We were desperate and dying when we showed up at our first NA meeting. We identif...
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JFT October 3 Losing self-will
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Our egos, once so large and dominant, now take a back seat because we are in harmony with a loving God. We find that we lead richer, happier, and much fuller lives when we lose self-will. Basic Text, p. 105 =Addiction and self-will go hand in hand. The unmanageability that we admitted to in Step One w...
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Online newbie wondering if.....
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I am new online meetings but have been a struggling addict for more than 5yrs. Every time that I quit using the dope & pills, I get very depressed and don't feel like myself at all. So i keep going back to one drug or another in order to "feel right". Has anyone else experienced this and do yo...
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JFT October 2 Keeping faith
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We grasp the limitless strength provided for us through our daily prayer and surrender as long as we keep faith and renew it. Basic Text, p. 46 =There are two parts to recovery: getting clean, and staying clean. Getting clean is comparatively easy because we only have to do it once. Staying clean i...
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JFT October 1 Not just a motivation for growth
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We learn that pain can be a motivating factor in recovery. Basic Text, p. 30 =Painwho needs it! we think whenever were in it. We see no good purpose for pain. It seems to be a pointless exercise in suffering. If someone happens to mention spiritual growth to us while were in pain, we most likely snor...
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the aniversary of my suicide
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AS october 11th starts to near i find my self still pisses off i was to stupid to even pull that off i still hate the world rather or not i still put my smile on i have been faking it till i make it since but does the desire of death after being so close ever go away as for me i try to calculate where i went wrong the...
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JFT September 30 Being ourselves
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Our real value is in being ourselves.Basic Text, p. 105=Over and over, we have tried to live up to the expectations of those around us. We may have been raised believing that we were okay if we earned good grades in school, cleaned our rooms, or dressed a certain way. Always wanting to belong and be l...
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Looking for a surrogate Father Figure - need to make up missed times to a surrogate daughter?
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Do you know anyone that might need a daughter-figure in his life?? A HUGE source of issues for my girlfriend is from her dad not caring for her, being there or advising her to make healthy decisions throughout her youth. Even when he writes to her, currently from prison, its all about him his issues on...
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Building Your Faith
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Quote: Heb 11:1 (KJV) Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. This scripture right here has always intrigued myself personally. People would say, how to be able to have more faith, or how to maybe even exercise faith. Having faith is in my opinion a gift that is g...
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Odds 'n' Ends...
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So backing up to my post in mid-August... after returning from LA, I decided to quit crabbin' about life and do something different. I decided that hey, I'm young, smart, and motivated. Let's try something new. So I'm taking some chemical dependency courses (an intro class and a pharmacology cla...
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JFT September 29 Just for today
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When we stop living in the here and now, our problems become magnified unreasonably.Basic Text, p. 99=Just for todayits a comforting thought. If we try to live in the past, we may find ourselves torn by painful, disquieting memories. The lessons of our using are not the teachers we seek for recov...
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JFT September 28 Hope
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Gradually, as we become more God-centered than self-centered, our despair turns to hope.Basic Text, p. 95=As using addicts, despair was our relentless companion. It colored our every waking moment. Despair was born of our experience in active addiction: No matter what measures we tried to...
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One More Day
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I found this meditation book that is for people who have chronic Illnesses. I am not saying that I will post them everyday here but I would like to share. If this needs put into another section that is OK Just didn't know where to put it. One More Day September 28, 2011 Quote:A positive, responsible perso...
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How life events have evolved over the years!
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Blessings of this day! This Sunday, going to have a couple Venison roasts and some steaks ,the last of my take from last season as Bow season(Deer Hunting) begins here in a couple weeks in Upstate New York! Having some recovering addicts and some sponsees over for good clean fun and fellowship, do som...
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update
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Good Mornin NA Family! Just thought I'd give a little update as to my thoughts and actions recently. Woke up Sunday Mornin cravin drugs and in a foul mood. Needless to say my anxiety and irritablility sky rocketed. Unfortunately, my husband was the recipent of all my unbridled fury. This led to guilt a...
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JFT September 27 Right back up
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There is something in our self-destructive personalities that cries for failure.Basic Text, p. 80=Poor me; woe is me; look at me, my life is such a mess! Ive fallen, and no matter how hard I try, I continue to fail. Many of us came to NA singing this sad refrain.Life isnt like that anymore. True, so...
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JFT September 26 Seeing ourselves in others
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It will not make us better people to judge the faults of another.Basic Text, p. 38=How easy it is to point out the faults of others! Theres a reason for this: The defects we identify most easily in others are often the defects we are most familiar with in our own characters. We may notice our best fri...
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JFT September 25 The fourth step--fearing our feelings
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September 25The Fourth Stepfearing our feelingsWe may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic.Basic Text, p. 30=A common complaint about the Fourth Step is that it makes us painfully conscious of our defects of character. We may be t...
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JFT September 24 A growing concept of God
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The only suggested guidelines are that this Power be loving, caring, and greater than ourselves. We dont have to be religious to accept this idea. The point is that we open our minds to believe.Basic Text, p. 24=In a lifelong process of coming to believe, our understanding of God will change. Th...
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first anniversary jitters
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hello my NA family first of all, I'm glad you're here. I'll go to a meeting soon but I need to dump this now, on my way to work. a year ago yesterday I was at my bottom. I'm grateful for it; it woke me up to the insanity of my life I'd been pretending to live for decades. yesterday was hard -- I was irritable all...
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Blame & Personal Responsibilty
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I am not an addict but an addict's soon-to-be-ex wife. My husband of almost 5 yrs and father of our three children, admitted to using again and is trying to place blame on me. He claims that his support system "vanished", that I deleted all of his contact numbers out of his cell phone (he got a n...
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