very blessed, i left the transition house with pretty much everything i needed and more. Amazing
currently waiting on a jopb verification, been struggling with some things there, wether or not to tell my prospective employer that i'm an addict, it is relelvent to her but didn't have the balls to tell her when the opportunity arose, but apparently she will be calling my job references....not sure what i was thinking when i put them on my resume to begin with as i was fired, they found out about my addiction...
should i call my reference?? Should i tell my prospect??
my old boyfriend is really wreaking some havoc today, he put my welfare cheque into my bank acount with a note saying...this woman is a cocaine addict, this is probably your only chance at recovering this money. (!!!!!!!!!!)
i also just read an email from him....nasty nasty...saying that when my landlord called for a reference they gave him the address and he plans on giving it to an old dealer of mine so that he can "collect" his money of 400 bucks
(((((Wendy))))), hope things get better for you. Sorry that you are going thru lots of hardships in this period of transition to recovery where the past of addiction looms as a threat frequently. I can relate. Sometimes, it still does for me. Many of my non-addict friends and some relatives still perceive me as an active addict, and don't trust that I have stopped using or changed any. My Hep C, which is a perpetual damage due to my using, still cripples me and reminds me of my irreversible past. But things ain't like they used to be in my initial days, weeks or months clean now. Much has changed, in ways unimaginable, and these problems I had to face in my first year clean has only made me stronger now, and I'm grateful that I went thru all that, and continue to go thru the demons of my active addiction sometimes, a reminder of where I came from, and an assurance that my Higher Power gives me these experiences with a loving intention of wanting me to learn something and grow...
Keep sharing with us, Wendy. Your ability to stay clean and recover inspite of all these hardships is truly inspiring... Glad we have you here with us.
Prayers, NA Hugs and Fellowship Love ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
