Typing this is just like picking up that heavy phone. My name is Shelley, and i am an addict.
Until a month ago, I had a year clean. Now I'm drinking. I still can't stand me. Tonight I have no one to call, no one to go to. I'd rather pull the trigger. I haven't been to meetings cause I have no car right now. I thought I had it under control. The using dreams are sooo real.
I am so glad that you found us here. welcome home girl.!!
i also relapsed not too long ago. but it took me longer then just one month to find my way here. i know how you feel ,i felt the same way. but it doesn't have to continue. you've proved that you were able to quit once before and for such a long time too. we all slip , sometimes those slips are just what we needed. to show us how much we need each other , that the problem , the addiction , is always waiting to reclaim us. what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. i believe this. because i am now stronger then i was before i relasped. it was a hard leason to learn . i would of liked a softer, gentler way . but HP wanted to make sure that i really got the message this time...lol...and so far it's worked , i have just over 6 months clean time now. one day at a time. shelley. sometimes one hour or one minute. but they all add up ....
we have a chat room here where we can share and support each other. it's more active in the evenings but people pop in and out all day. so feel free to drop in any time.
and we also have online meeting 4 times a week. which is great for people like you who can't get to regular meetings . and me who only have two per week where i live.
i hope to hear from you again shelley please keep coming back. we're here if you need us.
and we would love to share our hope faith and strength with you....peggy
