A bit of a tall order

Betty · Newbie

A bit of a tall order

BigV · Senior Member

If what you have is becoming a problem and once dependency , fear, isolation become a way of life and you beomce a prisoner of addiction then grab hold of this program and try as you might to get a grip on this thing you have, take responsibilty, if it owns you then it's going to take your life eventually.

Stay with us theres alot of help here if you ask you shall recieve.

-- Edited by BigV at 10:55, 2006-11-25

Tahir · Member

Betty, Welcome to Miracles In Progress Group of NA. Thanks for sharing with us. You might want to check out the NA Information Pamphlet "Am I An Addict". The link is http://na.org/pdf/litfiles/us_english/IP/EN3107.pdf

Keep coming back.

Hugs, Love, Light ~ Tahir.

peggy · Senior Member

Hi Betty ,

it's great seeing you here again,

im so glad you're here.

it's hard when you live where they don't have regular meetings and other addicts to talk to face to face. but at times like this you got to thank god for the internet. we're only a click away!!

where i live there are very few members in NA and only two meetings a week. Plus only a few women, so i was having a hard time finding a sponser too. one of the guys told me about a website that has on line sponsers so there's another problem solved. i'll get him to share the info on the site with you .

and we have meetings here on MIP, even with time changes you should be able so squeeze in the sunday one hopefully. come check it out. you might get some answers and hear something that will help you deal with what you're going through...

hope to see you in chat and at the meetings...take care . huge hug to you betty. love peggy

jenny · Veteran Member

Hi Betty, I can really relate to your post. I am an addict, addicted to opiate pain killers and live out in the country w/my 2 kids alone. My partner is a heroin addict of the most extreme kind, and so he has always been my focus. Alanon helped me take a good look at myself. This last year was so devastating with him spiralling into hell that I became very very ill in my own disease. It's hard to see your problem when it is perscribed by a doctor and paid for by health insurance. I don't know when it happened, the shift, but once he went into rehab I lost it, no longer able to survive without crisis. I began taking more and more pills, and got more and more tired, anxiec, depressed, insane... I was listening to some 12 step speaker tapes and when a room full of addicts described all the ingredients that go into the making of an addict, I could relate to it all. My problem ahs become very exacerbated in the past few months, and right now I'm doing everything I can to keep myself from going to the dope man, who unfortunately I know well. I am going to get help getting off these things, but I was told yesterday my liver is swollen from the acetaminophen, so I can't take suboxone. I spent many a month in misery b/c I couldn't get to meetings, kids, fatigue... But getting my ass to a meeting is always well worth it and the highlight of my days. It makes everything easier and keeps me in check while I wait for help. I speak to a sponsor 3 states away, and that always helps too. I pray and pray, and my higher power answers my prayers. I come here to this site, to the chat room, and I get hope, love and inspiration, I want what those recovering addicts have. Thank god for the steps, because they have helped me start to really understand myself.
blessings and love to you,
Jen

peggy · Senior Member

Oh Jen,

i can so relate to your story. !!!

the addiction to the crisis or kauous as i call it . is almost a devastating as the drugs we use to deal with them.. i was caught in that trap many times.. one feeding off the other, both dragging me down...sucks.

i am so glad that at this moment i'm not in that vicous cycle. and with the help of NA and the people here i hope to never go back there.

leasoning to the people here, i know that there is hope and a way to get through this . with the help of others. that's the wonderful thing about NA, we need never be alone again!!!

i'm so glad that both you and betty are here with us . in numbers there is strength. we need you as much as you need us . together we can... keep coming back . HUGe hugs for jen and betty...your friend peggy.

jenny · Veteran Member

I'm so glad Betty and I are here also. My midwife just stopped by and picked up my 2yr old out of

the blue, so I am also soooo greatful I can get into town now and get to a 6pm meeting. The last

time I went to this meeting I was very uncomfortable, but that doesn't meen it was bad. So back I

go, and open I am. Those uncomfortable moments usually reveal the most to me about myself.

Love and hugs and many thanks

Jen

Tahir · Member

Great that you can make meetings now, Jenny. So true that the discomfort that I may feel about and around other people actually springs from something that might be wrong within me, and hence those moments actually give me an opportunity to work on myself and change, if needed...

CoRyAnN · Veteran Member

Wow that was wierd reading your post..It's soo me. I too am recovering from Opiats. I too have a chronic back problem..I toooo live in a very remote area! No meetings and no sponcer. Weird eh? If you want to talk I'm here. I have 47 days clean:)

Tahir · Member

CoryAnn, congrats on the big 47 miracles. You rock. Way to go. Keep coming back and share with us.

hugs and love.

peggy · Senior Member

Hi Betty

As you can see from the reponses to your post, that you are not alone!!!

many many people are addicted to pills and live in rural areas. we're everywhere...lol...

i was wondering how you are doing.? if you're feeling better.

we're here if you need us. all you have to do is ask...hugs and love peggy

CoRyAnN · Veteran Member

Thanks Tahir

Peggy maybe God has a reason/plan for putting us all together??

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