I have so much gratitude in my heart today, This evening I picked up my first gray key tag! I look back on the last 18 months and feel that I barely know that person that first walked through the doors of NA. For that Im greatfull! So many gifts , in so little time. I am so proud of my life today and the gifts recovery has given me. I am equaly as proud of my son he is 16 years old and he picked up his 6 month tag this week, so much has changed for him. This year in school he has not skipped any classes and has a 72% on his mid terms, WOW !!! last year with the using he failed 3 classes and almost got kicked out for skipping.The Windsor convention I took him to last May really hit home for him . I am so greatfull NA has given me the tools to guide him with love to a new way to live. Thank you all for showing us a new way to live!
Hi sandra, we finally met last night on chat , was great seeing you there , sorry i was so tired , couldn't think straight any longer and didn't want to give a bad first impression...lol
after i left the chat room i checked out the message board and saw this , i went right back to the chat room , but you'd already left...i wanted to say CONGRATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love hearing stories with a happy endings, so to speak...both you and your son sound like you've come a long way and i'm thrilled for both of you.
it gives me hope and insperation , that i can find my way to where you two are right now. peace and love ,peggy
Thank you both for the congrats, I am truly amazed at where I am today less than 2 years ago I never even knew I had a problem. This disease is so cunning I honestly thought that what I was doing since the age of 13 was normal.I grew up in an adicit houshold, getting high with my mom at 13 and bar hopping with her at 15. I never thought that drugs had anything to do with how messed up my life was. March of 2005 my son and I ended up in a homless shelter , it was like my HP slaped me across the fase and woke me up for the first time in my life. I couldent belive where I was and dident know how we ended up there. For the first time in my life I began to hear what everyone was telling me for years"What are you doing with your life?" was the most commen quote. I really thought I had my shit together, I was a single mother for 7 years and in that time I had gone back to school to get my grade 12, then went to collage and held down an amazing job doing what I love most.I did all of this high, and was easely fooled by my disease that my life was managable. The reallity was that I was just going through the motions, doing what I thought I was expected to do. Every time I was fased with confilct I would just get high and keep going never dealing with my reallity...lol... never knowing my reallity! It wasent untill my car accedent in /98 that my reallity became a problem. When I could no longer work I lost my identity, my confidence, my self worth, dam I lost me! It was then that using became a way to get through every day. Today I thank my HP for life thretining depression that came with the pain from my accedent, it was that depression that helped me find my way to NA. The journey I have been on since May 23/05 in recovery has lifted that hopeless, worthless state of mind I was in and given me a life I had never knowen existed. At the age of 41 I am finaly learning who I am ,and for the first time I stand for something insted of falling for everything Thanks to NA.
I'm 45 and I never thought I could make changes thought I was just an old dog set in my ways and that was a pretty hopeless place. But we can change and we can become something wiser from our past experiences, we just can't let those things in the past own us and rule who we are in a negative way, your doing great
Thanks for sharing your gratitude and joy with us, Sandra. I'm happy for both you and your son. Congratulations on the great milestones of recovery. Give your son and big NA hug on my behalf. Hugs and Love.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
In his last post here at MIP, he informed that he is leaving this group. However, he is active on another online group that I'm a part of, Peggy, where I guess you also show up. Check him out there if you wanna say Hi to him.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Sandra, how have you been lately? Have been thinkin' of you and missing you lately... Please share with us if and when you drop in here at MIP. Hope and pray all is well with you.
Hugs, Love, Light ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Thanks Tahir for thinking of me, I have been doing well. Seems I just have no time to sit at my computer lattly. so much going on in the fellowship here and now that I'm feeling better had to get going on my christmas shopping and baking...busy busy! Gee I loged on tonight and had 95 emails guess it's been a while...ops! Hope every one here is doing well I do think about you guys a lot and have to try harder to make time to keep in touch. thanks for doing your part love and miss you all!
peace and love ,peggy
