Ok so we get clean pull together a few days, confront a few issues work a few steps.
We start making some changes in our lives and good things start to happen.
Then something comes up, an argument with someone, we get angry and start to shake or we go into silent mode, we get that look on our faces that someone sees and it scares them because this small deal turns into a big deal for us.
We examine ourselves and just what went down and we see something thats just not right, it's a little too much on the emotional side , nearly out of control, we admitt our wrong, forgive the other person, forgive ourselves, turn it over hoping never to do this again and then, again it happens.
There just little things, maybe a comment someone made that we took the wrong way, maybe someone ran us off the road a bit in traffic maybe we just weren't feeling well and we pushed someone away and isolated into our own liddle world, we ran, fear gripped us , frustration grabbed hold and we lost sensibilty, we got selfish and panic'd.
Maybe this will help us some
November 22
Foundation First
"As we begin to function in society, our creative freedom helps us sort our priorities and do the basic things first."
Basic Text pg. 83
No sooner do we get clean than some of us begin putting other priorities ahead of our recovery. Careers, families, relationships - all these are part of the life we find once we've laid the foundation of our recovery. But we can't build a stable life for ourselves before we do the hard, basic work of laying our recovery foundation. Like a house built on sand, such a life will be shaky, at best.
Before we begin putting all our attention to rebuilding the detailed framework of our lives, we need to lay our foundation. We acknowledge, first, that we don't yet have a foundation, that our addiction has made our lives utterly unmanageable. Then, with the help of our sponsor and our home group, we find faith in a Power strong enough to help us prepare the ground of our new lives. We clear the wreckage from the site upon which we will build our future. Finally, we develop a deep, working familiarity with the principles we will practice in our continuing affairs: honest self-examination, reliance upon our Higher Power's guidance and strength, and service to others.
Once our foundation is prepared, then we can go full steam ahead to put our new lives together. But first we must ask ourselves if our foundation is secure, for without our foundation, nothing we build can stand for long.
Just for today: I will take care to lay a secure foundation for my recovery. Upon such a foundation, I can build for a lifetime in recovery.
juggling our lives is sometimes harder than it looks, we left behind so much damage, that we feel we must correct. but with the foundation that bigv meantioned , everything could fall apart. we, (I) need to concentrate on my recovery first , then the rest falls into place. in HP's time not mine... hugs and love. good read bigv. love ya man....peggy
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
maybe we just weren't feeling well and we pushed someone away and isolated into our own liddle world, we ran, fear gripped us , frustration grabbed hold and we lost sensibilty, we got selfish and panic'd.
i meant to say without that foundation , everything could fall apart..
