I am waiting right now to go to my group. I just wanted to talk about some good news that I got. I have been going to college through what is called Vocational Rehabilitation. The only Benefit I can think of about being an addict is that they are paying for my college and if I hadn't spent so much time ruining my life I wouldn't be able to make it better now with the help of some really wonderful people. Anyway I am studying to get into Photo-journalism/essayism. With the way that the industry is going it is impossible to be in this feild without having a Digital SLR Camera. Something that I would not be able to afford for a very long time. Today my counselor told me that they are going to buy a Digital Camera for me. I had no Idea that there are people that are actually there to help me. I have been so distrustful of others. I was floored I didn't know what to say. It amazes me that someone is willing to make an investment in me. Of course I had to show him that I was serious about wanting to make my life better. What amazes me is that I have gone so long without having any type of program for my recovery. I was using school to keep my sobriety. But it didn't work I need more than that. I know this now. My relapses prove that. Now that I am in the program. I am finally starting to believe in me. That I can make it. Before I was going to school and making it by the whites of my knuckles and sometimes I would scrape those. Well I guess that is it. Today I am clean and I am greatful that I have the opportunities that I have.
It's pretty incredible the blessing we recieve when we put some effort towards bettering ourselves.
Since my last relapse i've gotten my contractors licens, something i've put off during a long period of clean time because i was afraid, something about that relapse brought out something new inside of me and that is that I needed to believe in myself and trust in my higher power more, when I relapsed I was tore up emotional felt lower then low and hitting another bottom just made me that much stronger and that much more wise and that much more closer to my higher power and what I had available to me I have used.
Be greatful theres alot more to come as long as you stay on track.....
Congralutions Eric. All the best on your career in Photography. My first Sponsor always says that addiction was only a small price we had to pay to get this priceless program in our life. When I hear the miracles happening in everyone's life here, it fills me with strength and hope too. Miracles do happen. WE ARE THE PROOF
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Hi eric , been a while since we heard from you , how are things going?
did you get that new camera.? and if so , how's it working?
would love to hear from you or see you in the chat room , drop us a line and let us know how you are doing. you have friends here that miss you....take care ...hugs peggy
I am waiting right now to go to my group. I just wanted to talk about some good news that I got. I have been going to college through what is called Vocational Rehabilitation. The only Benefit I can think of about being an addict is that they are paying for my college and if I hadn't spent so much time ruining my life I wouldn't be able to make it better now with the help of some really wonderful people. Anyway I am studying to get into Photo-journalism/essayism. With the way that the industry is going it is impossible to be in this feild without having a Digital SLR Camera. Something that I would not be able to afford for a very long time. Today my counselor told me that they are going to buy a Digital Camera for me. I had no Idea that there are people that are actually there to help me. I have been so distrustful of others. I was floored I didn't know what to say. It amazes me that someone is willing to make an investment in me. Of course I had to show him that I was serious about wanting to make my life better. What amazes me is that I have gone so long without having any type of program for my recovery. I was using school to keep my sobriety. But it didn't work I need more than that. I know this now. My relapses prove that. Now that I am in the program. I am finally starting to believe in me. That I can make it. Before I was going to school and making it by the whites of my knuckles and sometimes I would scrape those. Well I guess that is it. Today I am clean and I am greatful that I have the opportunities that I have.
