There have been a few days that I just almost couldn't make it but thinking about this site and all of you gave me power over my addiction and kept me moving foreward instead of stepping backwards, it's all because of you whom my God brought me too and the desire to stay clean, together thats all i've had at times, I am most greatful for finding this board and all of you I hope everyone who comes in touch with this place finds what i've found, a power greater then myelf to sustain me thru hard times, THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU
That reminds me to also reflect as to what this group and the online NA support I get here has done to my recovery lately... all you kindred spirits here at Miracles In Progress have been a calming influence that has smoothened out my otherwise-sometimes-fledgling recovery... I'm ever grateful to my Higher Power that I found you all, and wish all the newcomers and other recovering addicts also find what I found here, unconditional love and compassion and some power-packed tools to stay stopped and recover. Thank you all, MIP Family. I love each one of you dearly and I need you all in my recovery.
Hugs, Love, Light ~ Tahir.
P.S. and thanks BigV, for creating this opportunity for me to realize how important this forum has become in my daily recovery, and also for me to express my gratitude towards all here at MIP.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
5:30 am, this morning I was heading out to go fishing and one of my neighbors came out to me, she was TWEAKING on crank. I have been taking her son with me fishing and yesterday took him to work with me, he's 17 and a good kid.
She thanked me for everything I was doing and I asked her if I could be perfectly honest with her about something, about her and she said yes. So I asked about her maybe having a problem with drugs, she danced in front of me the whole time you know that tweakers dance? well she didn't deny it hell how could she LOL, said she had it under control, so said ok it's 5:30 in the morning have you had any sleep all night? NOPE none , so I gave her some food for thought, I wasn't judgmental just laying out some facts about addiction. She's alot deeper into addiction then she even realizes, in denial of what she is doing is hurting noone, I had to point out that NO it is hurting people including herself, we went back and fourth but it wasn't a fight but it was my sobriety up against addiction and ALL IT'S EXCUSES, and man she used every single one LOL.
It's all such a freaken LIE, addiction wraps us around it's finger and plays us like a puppet, sickening to see, pray for her guys and me that maybe I can get thru to the person now that i've gotten some dialog open.
All the best, BigV. Maybe your Higher Power is using you as a medium to make her see light. Keep it going. Trying to carry the message of freedom and hope from addiction is what has set me free today.
Also, when I see suffering addicts like that, I could so clearly see myself in them... that's the edge we all have over non-addict wellwishers trying to help some addict... that is why the therpeutic value of one addict helping another is without parallel...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
"""""DENIAL OF OUR DISEASE KEPT US SICK"""" says the TEXT !!!!
Hey Raman, not only does the Text say so, but is it not also our own experience as addicts that IT IS INDEED SO? LOL...
-- Edited by Tahir at 16:37, 2006-10-17
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Someone I know came up to me today and they also had a talk with her yesterday, he's known her many years.
So anyways when he got done she said that I had also had a similiar talk with her just days ago so yeah the message is being sent to her loud and clear I hope she FEELS it and does something about it.
We can be led to the water, whether we choose to drink is entirely up to us.
And we addicts will drink it only when we are real thirsty, not until then... the pain of being thirsty must become unbearable, then we become willing to end that pain by drinking the water...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
