IM GLAD TO BE BACK, I HAD RELAPSED A YEAR AGO .I CAN ALWAYS STOP IF I WANTED TO BUT COULD NEVER STAY STOPPED FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME .THE MOST CLEAN TIME I HAS WAS 7 MONTHS AND THAT WAS 7 YRS AGO.AS SOON AS MY FEELINGS GET HURT IM RIGHT BACK TO DRINKING AGAIN EVENTUALLY AND THEN GETTING HIGH FOLLOWS SHORTLY IF NOT IMMEDIATELY.I HAVE ALL THE INFO I COULD POSSIBLY NEED AND STILL AS SOON AS THE FOG CLEARS IM RIGHT BACK TO DRINKING AGAIN.THIS TIME I GOT LUCKY I DIDNT END UP IN JAIL OR REHAB NOTICE I SAID I GOT LUCKY.RELATIONSHIPS ARE A SERIOUS TRIGGER FOR ME.BOTH ME AND MY FIANCEE WERE IN RECOVERY AND WE BOTH RELAPSED NOT AT THE SAME TIME EITHER BUT WHEN I SAW HIM GET HIGH FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER BEING CLEAN FOR SO LONG I WANTED TO DIE SHORTLY AFTER THAT THE RELATIONSHIP ENDED.THE FUNNY THING IS JUST THE DRUGS WERE DIFFERENT WE WERE BOTH USING ME FIRST THEN HIM SO HE SAID.SO NOW I LIVE BACK AT HOME WITH MY PARENTS AFTER HE STARTED USING MORE AND MORE I HAD TO LEAVE I LOST EVERYTHING IN THAT MOVE I WAS TO SCARED TO GO BACK EVEN WITH THE POLICE.SCARED THAT I WOULD SEE HIM AND NEVER BE ABLE TO LEAVE THE PERSON I LOVE SO MUCH BUT I HAD TO GET CLEAN I HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME......SO ITS BACK TO BASIS IM GLAD I FOUND THIS SITE .....THANKS
Good Job, I commend you. You knew what you had to do. Most times when we use our thinking becomes impaired. I am not an experienced clean drug addict YET, however I have a good network and if they were to read this I am sure they would say you made the right decision. This is a selfish program and damn we are worth it. Your love for your financee is real and I am sure you want them to be clean as well but this is your time, so get selfish. Take care and I wish you a successful 24.
thanks,i feel good about the decision i made and i did not stop drinking right away but when i did finally make the decision i feel a million times better about it.i know recovery is where i need to be as soon as i started reading my literature i felt a million times better.the na literature always makes me feel better and i have alot of it that i accumulated throughout the years.my higher power will see me through,he brought me back into recovery,and im sure he will see my fiancee back as well one day if hes not there already i have not looked back since i left.
Just take care of you, let him take care of himself and maybe things will work out later for the two of you once your both back on track, I hope so if it's God will.
I talked with my ex girlfriend this afternoon I let her be for over 2 weeks now and she was surprised to hear from me and said she was actually worried something had happened to me, jail, dead ..... We had a good talk nothing deep just how are you and whats happening, then we hung up, I miss her pretty bad at times but thoughs feelings are passing , and it's not that I don't care I just need to move on and not let this bring me down as it has in the past and definetly not get any unrealistic expectations whatsoever, it needs to stay the way it is.
WELCOME BACK, MERCEDES. IT'S NOT WHERE WE WERE THAT COUNTS, BUT WHERE WE ARE GOING... KEEP COMIN' UNTIL IT WORKS, AND IT SURE DOES AS THAT'S WHAT I KEPT DOING AND THAT'S HOW I SUDDENLY REALIZED THAT I WAS ABLE TO STAY STOPPED... GLAD WE HAVE YOU HERE WITH US. KEEP SHARING WITH US... LOVE YOU AND NEED YOU HERE...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
