Just yesterday I knew I was in a bad situation. It happened in my safe place, whoever thought. I have been following all suggestions, one of them being to change people, places and things. I live with my sister and her family who are not drug users, therefore it is my safe place. Just a few weeks ago my sister had a real bad car accident, luckily everybody lived, Thank God. My sister sustained a bad back injury which meant a perscription for a powerful pain medication, something in which I really enjoy. Upon receiveng that medication I asked her to keep it in a separate place away from other non tempting medications and she honoured my request. Well yesterday, I accidetally found it while looking for a sweat shirt. So many thoughts ran through my head."Will she miss one....", "will anyone be able to tell I had one....", "well I can just pick up another white tag....". Scary!!! I opened the bottle and did everything but take it. I smelled them, I took one out and touched it and then I put it back in the bottle. What I had planned to be a day of rest from my recovery quickly changed. I usually get up everyday at 4:30am and start my day with an AA meeting to support a friend, then I go to the hospital who has been great in my recovery, after all classes at 3:00pm I go to the gym for an hour, take my shower, eat supper and take a bus to a NA meeting. I leave my house every morning with enough supplies to get me through my day. Yesterday instead of taking my day off I quickly packed my bag got to the bus stop and went to the hospital to take in meetings and then met my sponsor at the Na meeting. This was a big step for me as in the past I would have went with my urge. I feel pretty good today. Thanks for your time and reading this. I am proud to be a newbie here. I wish you all a good 24.
Well, I definatley love my sister. She is so supportive, she went the extra mile for me yesterday. I told her I found the meds and asked if she could find another hiding spot. She found the best place for all of us.....down the toilet. No more reservations.....AWESOME!! Thank you BigV and Darlin for your replies. It is good to hear from senior members. I generally stick to the senior members at my meeting as I am afraid I will befriend the wrong person.
i understand my mom takes a million pills a day and some of them happened to be pain pills.i was never really a pill person but i know that if i feel bad enough i could become one so my mom hides them just in case.good thing you didnt take one starting over from square one sucks and then youd have to get your white key chain again that sucks, ive done it alot and its not embarrasing but it hurts me everytime i go up there because i relapsed so i commend you.ya know its so easy to forget where we came from at times thats my own experience no matter how long ive been away from using drugs if i go back it still ends up the same no matter what
Sheila, Welcome aboard the Miracles In Progress. Glad we have you here with us.
And yes, thanks for sharing your strength and hope with us. Felt so good after reading that. Always helps to listen to someone share that they did not act out, no matter what... charges me up and gives me the strength to do so, in many other aspects of my daily life, if not with drugs or using...
Keep sharing, and stay with us. We need you.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Congratulations on making the right choice! Thank god that NA gives us the tools to get through all kinds of situations. It's up to us to use them and you did! Good for you, thats how it"s done one day at a time.
