School starts back for me tomorrow. I'm nervous, because I won't have my pills to get through the day, but I think it may help not to be sitting here at home just thinking about using all day (because I've shown myself that that only gets me into trouble!) Plus my sister and brother-in-law are in most of my classes with me (not sure if that's a good thing, but I'll know someone there-but sometimes it's easier to talk without my family around-talk the truth anyways)

well....I am going to go now, time for my son to go to school

hope you all have a good day

love you

oh who am I kidding-I am scared to death now that it is time, I literally feel like throwing up...not only am I drugless but I am out of cigs (though that i can remedy here in a little bit) I just hope today goes ok, I did get up and say my prayers