WOW, i CAN'T TELL YOU THE FEEL GOOD'S i HAVE BEEN GETTING LATELY BY HELPING TWO NEWCOMER LADIES THAT HAVE MADE THEIR WAY TO THE ROOMS OF NA. bOY DO i REMEMBER COMING INTO THE ROOMS SO SCARED, BEATEN DOWN AND NOT KNOWING WHAT TO EXPECT, I DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE AND REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO. ALL I KNEW WAS THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT ANY MORE AND ALTHOUGH EVERY FIBER IN MY BODY WANTED TO DIE MY HIGHER POWER WAS KEEPING ME ALIVE BUT I HAD NO IDEA WHAT FOR. WELL NOW I KNOW, GOD WAS DOING FOR ME WHAT I COULD NOT DO FOR MYSELF, KEEPING ME ALIVE FOR THE WOMEN I WAS TO HELP LATER. I GET SUCH A FEELING OF BELONGING IN NA, I GET A SENSE OF WORTH THAT NO ONE EVER COULD OF GIVEN ME BEFORE, I GET A SENSE THAT I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN OTHERS LIVES THAT MONTHS AND YEARS AGO NO ONE COULD OF EVER TOLD ME THAT I WOULD FEEL. NA HAS GIVEN ME A LIFE BEYOND MY WILDEST DREAMS, NA IS MY LIFE. TODAY I MATTER, TODAY I CARE ABOUT MYSELF WHICH IN TURN ALLOWS ME TO CARE FOR OTHERS. IT IS THE LIFE THAT GOD IN HIS ULTIMATE WISDOM HAD IN STORE FOR ME THAT I WAS TO BLIND TO SEE, GOD CAN SEE THE WHOLE PICTURE WHEN WE ARE GIVEN ONLY A GLIMPSE. LET GOD DO FOR YOU WHAT HE DID FOR ME, GOD HAS GIVEN ME A LIFE BEYOND MY WILDEST DREAMS. I THANK GOD FOR NA AND I THANK NA FOR GOD. ROCK ON NA, WITH LOVE AND RESPECT, BARBARA P
over the years helping other recovering addicts has been an awesome blessing for me.sometimes i have gone to far in it,by not allowing them to be responsible enough to meet their own responsibilities,or let them use recovery to escape living life.
but gradualy over time i have found s system of balance,that puts there recovery in their own pocket,making them responsible for there end of the deal.i will walk thru hell to bring it to the addicts that are willing to work the steps and find real recovery.
but that means i have to work mine to.we only keep what we have by giving it away.so that means i have to work on my issues,and be as responsible in my own stuff to give it away.
thanks for reminding me.
thanks for keeping me clean today barbara
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
