ok ive tryed to get thru all of this and came here to find resolution! But all im feeling here is guilt i feel like im being iterigated and it feels bad so in saying that im gonna quit these forums and give up on trying to surpass my addiction !!! i dont want to lose my only friend by trying to quit so good luck too you all because im giving up!!! bigV made me feel even more smaller than i already felt.its not easy to come in here and tell you guys about me shooting herion in my testicles and spill my gutts about vietnam.i dont know maybe these withdraws im having are making me say this but right now i gotta go and get a fix ive been clean 3 days now but im sick and before i can make a decision on this i gotta slip just this time
Scott. I would call but you know i havent paid the phone bill in 3 months. Im at my sisters right now, ill be over there in 14 minutes. I told you this was a bad idea. Lets not shoot up, i say we jsut go t o the nearest strip bar and get drunk as dogs. BigV shouldnt get to you just turn the other cheek, lets just give it a week of cleaness and she how we feel then, if by friday we still cant do it, then hell with it all. Ill be over in 15 minutes so feed ur goldfish and meet me outside so we can be in and out.
believe me its the withdrawals... they made me say lots of excuses just so i could say i need to get high one more time so i can get things straightened out... i spent 6 days in detox from heroin untill those thoughts passed and i could actually think to get things straightened out.
it was one of the hardest things i did. I had to get myself locked in a rehab to detox, cause everytime the sickness would drive me to use again. it would twist every and any exuse out of me to use again, it played my brain good. i'll pray for you, i know how hard it is, it takes immense will power to deny the sickness, and it will try to drive you mad if you deny it, but do your best bud, it is very hard to do
