I think the mornings are the hardest (maybe I only think that because it IS morning). I'm used to taking a couple of percs or whatever I have an hour or so before I have to get up, just to have the energy to get up and face the day. but, at least I'm not depressed this morning (yet...my emotions are like a roller coaster though)and this is day 3 clean
hope everyone has a good day, and I'm grateful to be here
I just said a prayer for you ( and me too LOL ) to keep us strong thru this day.
Focus on other things, my body aches to all hell in the morning I don't have the best bed to sleep on thats part of it but also pushing myself thru the day before, lifting weights , this morning my chest is tore up from 2 days ago when I really did a hard training session and i'm paying for it now I don't recover like I did when I was younger.
Stuff flys into my head and I have to throw it out as soon as it comes in. oh and I do about 2,000mg of advil in the morning just so I can get moving without hunching over LOL
thanks V! I think it must have been your prayer that got me of the couch. Now if I could clean this apartment! I know exactly what you mean about the advil, I take at least 5 usually just to get around (I've always taken it like that too on days I was out of pain pills) sometimes I worry about hurting my stomach with them.
When I feel like having "just a couple" I think of my sponsor telling me he didn't think I was ready to quit, that I wasn't going to last very long in the meetings. Maybe he knew that'd piss me off, tell me I can't do something and that's what i want to do. It motivates me anyways!
Hey I can relate with that. Mornings are the most awful for me, even now. Being a night creature by nature, I hate to show up for the day when I wake up in the mornings... My mind is always caught up in unknown fear and impending doom when I wake up... thinkin' of the day ahead and scared by the fact that I would have to show up for the day... go about doing things and living the day... It at least takes me awhile to come out of that depressed state and drag myself out of the bed...
One thing that helps me come out of this mood is when I head for the living room, sit on the sofa, clasp my hands together, close my eyes and say the Serenity Prayer and the Third Step Prayer, then lift the Just For Today book and read and reflect on today's meditation topic in the book.
Not to speak about my body not co-operating with me when I wake up. I feel so tired and aching, almost half of the times I wake up, due to my Hep C problem, that it takes me a couple of hours for my body to get ok enough for me to move on with the day...
It's getting worse and worse, since I stopped taking my ayurvedic medication for Hepatitis C a couple of months back. I even shared about it at the f2f recovery meeting today at my homegroup. One member also suggested that I try out Yoga everyday, and I think I'm gonna give it a try. I think it's worth it as Yoga heals all the three parts of my addiction ~ body, mind and soul. Also I plan to reintroduce daily meditation as a recovery tool, which I have also stopped doing for some days now.
So true, if I don't use what I have, I lose what I have.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I hope the yoga works for you Tahir, so you'll feel better! I have a yoga video around here somewhere, maybe I'll give it a try too. I don't have the Just for today book yet, but I'll get it soon. i was supposed to meet my sponsor at the church to get some book, but noone was there. That's what i used to tell myself "well, screw it, I'm going to use" stupid huh? I'm sure something came up, but my mind starts saying see, you're a loser and all that crap. I did pick up the living room (a little bit) and I may even wash the dishes....later
Thank you Adriana, I also hope Yoga will make me feel a lot better... Please let me know how you feel if you happen to try out your Yoga tape...
Peace and Hope ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
)and this is day 3 clean
