Looking back at me I see that I Never really got it right I never stopped to think of you I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by Somethin' strong like a drug that gets me High
What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold Never meant to be so cold What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold Never meant to be so
Cold, to you, I'm sorry 'bout all the lies Maybe in a different life You can see me stand on my own again 'Cause now I can see
You were the antidote that got me by Somethin' strong like a drug that got me High
What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold Never meant to be so cold What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold Never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be So cold
I never really wanted you to see The screwed up side of me that I keep Locked inside of me so deep It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go So many things you should have known I guess for me there's just no hope I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say (Say) Is I'm sorry for the way (Sorry for the way) I am (I am) I never meant to be so cold Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say (Say) Is I'm sorry for the way (Sorry for the way) I am (I am) I never meant to be so cold Never meant to be so cold
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again
[Bridge:] I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
[Chorus:] I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again
[Bridge:] I dont want to be the one The battles always choose 'Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
[Chorus:] I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight
[Bridge:] I'll paint it on the walls 'Cause I'm the one at fault I'll never fight again And this is how it ends
[Chorus:] I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit Tonight
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati On a snow white Christmas Eve Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline It been a long hard year She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention She was going way to fast Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes She didn't even have time to cry She was sooo scared She threw her hands up in the air
Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel
It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder And the car came to a stop She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock And for the first time in a long time She bowed her head to pray She said I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life I know I've got to change So from now on tonight
Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel Oh, I'm letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I'm on From this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh
No I ain't had nothing to drink I knew thats probably what you'd think If I dropped by this time of night Remember way back when I promised you I'd drop in At one of those meetings down at the Y
Well, they started talkin bout steps you take Mistakes you make The hearts you break And the price you pay I almost walked away
You could hear a pin drop When this old man Stood up and said I'm gonna' say it again Like I do every week For those who don't know me
It's the simple things in life Like the kids at home and a loving wife That you miss the most, when you lose control And everything you love starts to disappear The devil takes your hand and says no fear Have another shot, just one more beer Yah, I've been there, that's why I'm here
This ole boy stood up in the aisle Said he'd been living a life of denial And he cried as he talked about wasted years I couldn't believe what I heard It was my life word for word And all of the sudden it was clear
It's the simple things in life Like the kids at home and a loving wife That you miss the most, when you lose control And everything you love starts to disappear The devil takes your hand and says no fear Have another shot, just one more beer Yah, I've been there, that's why I'm here
I know for us it may be too late But it would mean the world to me If you were there when I stand to say It's the simple things in life Like the kids at home and a loving wife That you miss the most, when you lose control And everything you love starts to disappear The devil takes your hand and says no fear Have another shot, just one more beer Yah, I've been there, that's why I'm here Oh, I've been there, that's why I'm here
had to post my own song lyrics-this song always helps me get through some rough spots...
Blues Traveler - Just Wait Lyrics
If ever you are feeling like your tired and all your uphill struggles leave you headed downhill if you realize your wildest dreams can hurt you and your appetite for pain has drinken its fill i ask of you a very simple question did you think for one minute that you are alone? and is your suffering a privelege you share only? or did you think that everybody else feels completely at home?
Chorus: Just Wait..........Just Wait...........Just Wait.......And ItWill Come
if you think ive given up on you,your crazy and if you think i dont love you well then you're just wrong in time you just might take to feeling better Time is the beauty of the road being long i know that now you feel no consolation but maybe if i told you and informed you out loud i say this without fear of hesitation i can honestly tell you that you make me proud
Chorus
if anything i might've just said has helped you if anything i might've said helped you just carry on your rise uphill may no longer seem a struggle and your appetite for pain may all but be gone i hope for you and cannot stop at hoping until that smile has once again returned to your face theres no such thing as a failure who keeps trying coasting to the bottom is the only disgrace
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I take a look at my life and realize there's nothing left Cause I've been blastin and laughing so long that Even my mama thinks that my mind is gone
But I ain't never crossed a man that didn't deserve it Me be treated like a punk, you know that's unheard of You better watch how you talking, and where you walking Or you and your homies might be lined in chalk
I really hate to trip, but I gotta lope As they cough I see myself in the pistol smoke, fool I'm the kinda G the little homies wanna be like On my knees in the night Sayin' prayers in the street light
been spending most their lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise been spending most their lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise KEEP spending most our lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise KEEP spending most our lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise
Look at the situation, they got me facin I can't live a normal life, I was raised by the strap So I gotta be down with the hood team Too much television watchin' got me chasin dreams
I'm a educated fool wit money on my mind Got my ten in my hand and a gleam in my eye I'm a low down gangsta, set-trippin back And my homies is down, so don't arouse my anger, fool
Death ain't nuthin but a heart beat away I'm livin life do-or-die ah, what can I say? I'm twenty-three now, but will I live to see twenty-fo'? The way things is goin I don't know
Tell me why are we -- so blind to see That the ones we hurt -- are you and me
been spending most their lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise been spending most their lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise
keep spending most our lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise keep spending most our lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise
Power and the money, money and the power Minute after minute, hour after hour Everybody's running, but half of them ain't lookin It's goin on in the kitchen, but I dont know what's cookin
They say I got ta learn, but nobody's here to teach me If they cant understand it, how can they reach me? I guess they can't -- I guess they won't I guess they front; that's why I know my life is outta luck, fool
They been spending most their lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise They been spending most their lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise We keep spending most our lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise We keep spending most our lives Living in the Gangster's Paradise
Dead men lying on the bottom of the grave. Wondering when Savior comes Is he gonna be saved
Maybe You're a sinner into your alterning life Maybe you're a joker, maybe you deserve to die They were crying when their sons left God is wearing black He's gone so far to find no hope He's never coming back They were crying when their sons left All young men must go He's come so far to find the truth He's never going home
Young men standing on the top of their own graves Wondering when Jesus comes Are they gonna be saved
Cruelty to the winner, Bishop tells the King his lies Maybe you're a mourner, maybe you deserve to die They were crying when their sons left God is wearing black He's gone so far to find no hope He's never coming back They were crying when their sons left All young men must go He's come so far to find no truth He's nevergoing home
("Welcome" 2x humming)
Welcome to the Soldier Side Where there's no one here but me People all grow up to die There is no one here but me Welcome to the Soldier Side Where there is no one here but me. People on the Soldier's Side There's no one here but me.
I GO CRAZY ON SYSTEM OF A DOWN TOO, NEXT BEST THING TO IMPRESS ME AFTER NIRVANA, I CAN SAY... I USE THEIR MUSIC AS AN EFFECTIVE TOOL TO VENT OUT MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER WHEN THEY GET AT ME TOO MUCH... ANGER, RAGE, FRUSTRATION, FEAR, WORRIES, HATRED, YOU NAME IT... I BRING THEM ALL OUT BY LOCKIN' MYSELF IN MY ROOM, PLAY SYSTEM AT MAX SOUND AND BANG MY HEAD TILL I'M EXORCISED OF ALL MY DEFECTS... AND REPLACED BY PEACE AND CALM...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I GO CRAZY ON SYSTEM OF A DOWN TOO, NEXT BEST THING TO IMPRESS ME AFTER NIRVANA, I CAN SAY... I USE THEIR MUSIC AS AN EFFECTIVE TOOL TO VENT OUT MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER WHEN THEY GET AT ME TOO MUCH... ANGER, RAGE, FRUSTRATION, FEAR, WORRIES, HATRED, YOU NAME IT... I BRING THEM ALL OUT BY LOCKIN' MYSELF IN MY ROOM, PLAY SYSTEM AT MAX SOUND AND BANG MY HEAD TILL I'M EXORCISED OF ALL MY DEFECTS... AND REPLACED BY PEACE AND CALM...
DAMN your INSANE man LOLOLOLOL just kidding. It's some hard core lyrics and sounds blended together very emotional, yes I can see the closeness to Nirvana
NIRVANA - Come as you are
Come As you are As you were As I want you to be As a friend As a friend As a known memory Take your time Hurry up The choice is your Dont be late Take a rest As a friend As a known memory Memory ah Memory ah Memory ah
Come Doused in mud Cept in bleach As I want you to be As a trend A a friend As a known memory ah Memory ah Memory ah Memory ah
And I swear That I dont have a gun No I dont have a gun No I dont have a gun
Memory ah Memory ah Memory ah Memory ah {dont have a gun}
And I swear That I dont have a gun No I dont have a gun No I dont have a gun No I dont have a gun No I dont have a gun
Forward yesterday Makes me wanna stay What they said was real Makes me wanna steal Livin' under house Guess I'm livin', I'm a mouse All's I gots is time Got no meaning, just a rhyme
Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause I like to steal Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal
I'm half the man I used to me This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray Well, I'm half the man I used to be This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray Well, I'm half the man I used to me This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray Well, I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be
Feelin' uninspired Think I'll start a fire Everybody run Bobby's got a gun Think you're kinda neat Then she tells me I'm a creep Friends don't mean a thing Guess I'll leave it up to me
Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal Take time with a wounded hand Guess I like to steal Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal
I'm half the man I used to me This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray I'm half the man I used to be This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray I'm half the man I used to be This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be
Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal Take time with a wounded hand Guess I like to steal Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal
I'm half the man I used to me This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray I'm half the man I used to be This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray I'm half the man I used to be This I feel as the dawn It fades to gray I'm half the man I used to be, half the man I used to be, Half the man I used to be
Hey, what took you so long to find that out?!!! Imma Clean N Crazy, Insanely insane... hehe...
Somethings seldom change, and if nothing changes, nothing changes LOL
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Can’t find the answers I’ve been crawling on my knees Looking for anything To keep me from drowning Promises have been turned to lies Can't even be honest inside Now I’m running backward Watching my life wave me goodbye
Running blind I’m running blind Somebody help me see I’m running blind
Searching for nothing Wondering if I'll change I’m trying everything But everything still stays the same I thought if I showed you I could fly Wouldn't need anyone by my side Now I'm running backward With broken wings I know I’ll die
Running blind I’m running blind Somebody help me see I’m running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind
I can't find the answers I've been crawling on my knees Looking for anything To keep me from drowning I'm running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind
Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater
You dont need to bother; I dont need to be Ill keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I wont let go til it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; My flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying
You dont need to bother; I dont need to be Ill keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I wont let go til it bleeds
(solo: corey)
Wish Id died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten With its memories Diaries left With cryptic entries
And you dont need to bother; I dont need to be Ill keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I wont let go til it bleeds
You dont need to bother; I dont need to be Ill keep slipping farther But once I hold on Ill never live down my deceit
I'm looking at you through the glass Don't know how much time has passed Oh God it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home Sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass Don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel, that is the question But I forget you don't expect an easy answer When something like a soul becomes initialized And folded up like paper dolls and little notes You can't expect a bit of hope So while you're outside looking in describing what you see Remember what you're staring at is me
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass Don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real, so much to question An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything We thought came from the heart, But never did right from the start Just listen to the noises null and void instead of voices Before you tell yourself It's just a different scene Remember its just different from what you've seen
I'm looking at you through the glass Don't know how much time has passed And all I know is that it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
cause i'm looking at you through the glass, don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...
And it's the stars The stars that shine for you And it's the stars The stars that lie to you yeh ya
And it's the stars The stars that shine for you And it's the stars The stars that lie to you yeh ya
I'm looking at you through the glass Don't know how much time has passed Oh God it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass Don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
And it's the stars The stars that shine for you yeh ya And it's the stars The stars that lie to you yeh ya And it's the stars The stars that shine for you yeh ya And it's the stars The stars that lie to you yeh ya
When i'm out fishing I think about this song, SO MANY STARS and I feel like MYSELF out there..........
Artist : Switchfoot
Title : Stars
Maybe I've been the problem Maybe I'm the one to blame But even when I turn it off and blame myself The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy Maybe I'm the chance of rain And maybe I'm overcast And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain
I've been thinking 'bout everyone, Everyone you looks so lonely But when I look at the stars When I look at the stars When I look at the stars, I see someone else When I look at the stars The stars, I feel like myself
Stars looking at a planet Watching entropy and pain And maybe to start to wonder How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance Of a hope beyond my own And suddenly the infinite and penitent Begin to look like home
I've been thinking about everyone Everyone you looks so empty But when I look at the stars When I look at the stars When I look at the stars, I see someone else When I look at the stars The stars, I feel like myself. Yeah!
Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty When I look at the stars When I look at the stars When I look at the stars, I feel like myself When I look at the stars The stars, I see someone...
I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping While my guitar gently weeps I look at the floor and I see it need sweeping Still my guitar gently weeps
I don't know why nobody told you how to unfold you love I don't know how someone controlled you they bought and sold you
I look at the world and I notice it's turning While my guitar gently weeps With every mistake we must surely be learning Still my guitar gently weeps
I don't know how you were diverted you were perverted too I don't know how you were inverted no one alerted you
I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping While my guitar gently weeps I look at you all Still my guitar gently weeps
(Nine Inch Nails also, I listen to the Johnny Cash version)
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but I remember everything what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt
I will let you down I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts I cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else I am still right here
what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt
I will let you down I will make you hurt
if I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way
I haven't listened to this in awhile, but it's seen me through many sad nights
I've been sittin here Tryin to find myself I get behind myself I need to rewind myself Lookin for the payback Listen for the playback They say that every man bleeds just like me And I feel like number one Yet I'm last in line I watch my youngest son And it helps to pass the time I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same Everybody knows my name They say it way out loud A lot of folks fuck with me It's hard to hang out in crowds I guess that's the price you pay To be some big shot like I am Out strecthed hands and one night stands Still I can't find love
And when your walls come tumbling down I will always be around
Yeah As it...hey
And when your walls come tumbling down I will always be around
People don't know about the things I say and do They don't understand about the shit that I've been through It's been so long since I've been home I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long Maybe I forgot all things I miss Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this I said it too many times And I still stand firm You get what you put in And people get what they deserve Still I ain't seen mine No I ain't seen mine I've been giving just ain't been gettin I've been walking that there line So I think I'll keep a walking With my head held high I'll keep moving on and only God knows why
Only God Only God Only God knows why, why, why, why Only God...knows...why, why, why Only God knows why Take me to the river edge Take me to the river, hey hey hey
She never mentions the word addiction In certain company Yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan After you meet her family
She paints her eyes as black as night, now Pulls those shades down tight Yeah, she gives a smile when the pain comes, The pains gonna make everything alright
Says she talks to angels, They call her out by her name She talks to angels, Says they call her out by her name
She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket She wears a cross around her neck Yes, the hair is from a little boy And the cross is someone she has not met, not yet
Says she talks to angels, Says they all know her name Oh yeah, she talks to angels, Says they call her out by her name
She dont know no lover, None that I ever seen Yes, to her that aint nothing But to me, yeah me, Its everything
She paints her eyes as black as night now She pulls those shades down tight Oh yeah, theres a smile when the pain comes, The pains gonna make everything alright, alright yeah
She talks to angels, Says they call her out by her name Oh yeah, yeah, angels Call her out by her name Oh, angels They call her out by her name Oh, she talks to angels They call her out Yeah, they call her out Dont you know that they call her out by her name
I've always loved this song it's beautiful and sentimental Alicia Keys Song: Diary
Lay your head on my pillow Here you can be yourself No one has to know what you are feeling No one but me and you
I won't tell your secrets Your secrets are safe with me I will keep your secrets Just think of me as the pages in your diary
I feel such a connection Even when you far away Oooo baby if there's anything that you fear Call 489-4608 and I'll be here
I won't tell your secrets Your secrets are safe with me I will keep your secrets Just think of me as the pages in your diary
And only we know what talked about Don't know how you can be driven me so crazy Baby when your in town why don't you come around Be the loyalty you need you can trust
I won't tell your secrets Your secrets are safe with me I will keep your secrets Just think of me as the pages in your diary
Sometimes I wonder How I'd ever make it through, Through this world without having you I just wouldn't have a clue
'Cause sometimes it seems Like this world's closing in on me, And there's no way of breaking free And then I see you reach for me Lord
Sometimes I wanna give up I wanna give in, I wanna quit the fight And then I see you, God And everything's alright, everything's alright
When I see you smile I can face the world, oh oh, you know I can do anything When I see you smile Lord I see a ray of light, oh oh, I see it shining right through the rain When I see you smile Oh yeah, GOD when I see you smile at me
GOD there's nothing in this world that could ever do What a touch of your hand can do It's like nothing that I ever knew
And when the rain is falling I don't feel it, 'cause you're here with me now And one look at you Lord Is all I'll ever need, you're all I'll ever need
Chorus
Sometimes I wanna give up I wanna give in, I wanna quit the fight And then I see you GOD And everything's alright, everything's alright
You put me here for a reason You have a mission for me You knew my name and You called it Long before I learned to breathe
Sometimes I feel disappointed By the way I spend my time How can I further Your kingdom When I'm so wrapped up in mine
In a Blink of an eye that is when I'll be closer to You than I've ever been Time will fly, but until then I'll embrace every moment I'm given There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
And though I'm living a good life Can my life be something great? I have to answer the question Before it's too late
Cause in a Blink of an eye that is when I'll be closer to You than I've ever been Time will fly, but until then I'll embrace every moment I'm given There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
If I give the very best of me That becomes my legacy So tell me what am I waiting for? What am I waiting for?
In a Blink of an eye that is when I'll be closer to You than I've ever been Time will fly, but until then I'll embrace every moment I'm given
In a Blink of an eye that is when I'll be closer to You than I've ever been Time will fly, but until then I'll embrace every moment I'm given There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
Artist: The Beatles Lyrics Song: Fixing a Hole Lyrics
I'm fixing a hole where the rain gets in and stops my mind from wandering where it will go I'm filling the cracks that ran though the door and kept my mind from wandering where it will go
And it really doesn't matter if I'm wrong I'm right where I belong I'm right where I belong See the people standing there who disagree and never win and wonder why they don't get in my door
I'm painting my room in a colorful way, and when my mind is wandering there I will go
And it really doesn't matter if I'm wrong I'm right where I belong I'm right where I belong Silly people run around they worry me and never ask me why they don't get past my door
I'm taking my time for a number of things that weren't important yesterday and I still go
I'm fixing a hole where the rain gets in and stops my mind from wandering where it will go where it will go I'm fixing a hole where the rain gets in and stops my mind from wandering where it will go