Just got home-was at my dad's washing clothes, when he left to go to town, and i felt it, that pull, that urge, I started to sweat I wanted it so bad, his pills that he needs just to get around.I took him to the store before that and watched him rub at his legs and have to hang on to the cart to walk, and still I wanted those damn pills so BAD. I called someone from NA, got my clothes out of the dryer, still wet, all while he was on the phone just so I could make it out of there without stealing.now I'm home, I'm tired and my head hurts from crying all day, but I'm still clean for today.and I can't wait to get to a meeting tonight, so I can stay this way
WOW, YOU ARE AN TRULY AWESOME MIRACLE, ADRIANA. WAY TO GO. KEEP THE MIRACLE ALIVE.
The more we say "NO" to our obsessive mind, the more free we become...
Hope and pray that you have a great meeting...
Prayers and Hugs ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
lol adriana! I can totally relate to how you must of felt trying to get out of there just so you did'nt have to use! I think it's great that you didn't even wait for your clothes to dry, that means you really want this and want it bad. I remember one time I went to go pick up a friend from the program from a house she was living at where they were all drinking. I almost pushed this one guy down the stairs I was in such a hurry to get out of there. I didn't care who he was, all I knew was get out and get out fast.