I am going to write this quick, my son is home and I try not to let him see this site-or anyone-but I want to thank everyone who's taken time to help, one day I'll do the same for someone else
i know for me my hiding allowed me to relapse again and again.finaly i told my son.then my doctor.
i used one time after that.but i wouldnt trade the help i got from the suport.i mean,in reality,everyone knew i was an addict.gradualy the folks i was around at work,without even knowing i was clean,noticed a channge in my attitude.i got a better position.
so for me at least,getting honest helped me alot.
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
I can relate with that, Dalin. My recovery only started working when I came into the open, and admitted my problem, with my family and the treatment facility... That made it easier for me to avail myself of the support of the NA fellowship too... More than what happened when I disclosed my problem and asked for help and support, I realized that it were my fears that were keeping me from being honest... So true, everybody knew what I was doing all those years, I was the last one to know that I was an addict, even my little sister who was only 13 then knew it...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
it still terrifies me to think of being honest about what I've been doing-I can think of how it would feel if that weight weren't on me-the weight of all the lies, and I know it would be a huge relief, but at this moment I don't know how to start being honest. What if they don't understand, or hate me for the things I've done. I don't want my son to know what I've done.
Keep makin' those meetings, voice these concerns with the members there, and get their help and support, maybe, you come out with a way or two on how to go about this particular issue... Always helps to open up and ask for help... I was always amazed by the simplicity of the answers I got... you don't have to do it unless you have come to an informed decision after having shared it with as many members as possible, and until you feel ready for it...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
