I need adivce on something my mind has been acting werid lately I feel as this program is working to well I feel I'm btter to go on now someone help me I'm so I can see others with bottle in there hand and it no longer bugs me am I cured why am I'm geting better fighting the diesesse what does this mean? someone please repond back thanks!
Well in the old days they may have called it a "cure" but it's not really since at any time addiction can rear it's ugly head back up and that is why we must work the step towards "Recovery" .
We are recovering from an illness look at it that way it's still there within us for as long as we live sheryl, what we try to do is live with it and make the best of this life and make the best of ourselves so we can live within our own skin peacefully.
What you may have is a reprieve for the moment it's sometimes called "The pink cloud".
BigV wrote: Well in the old days they may have called it a "cure" but it's not really since at any time addiction can rear it's ugly head back up and that is why we must work the step towards "Recovery" .
We are recovering from an illness look at it that way it's still there within us for as long as we live sheryl, what we try to do is live with it and make the best of this life and make the best of ourselves so we can live within our own skin peacefully.
What you may have is a reprieve for the moment it's sometimes called "The pink cloud".
when i had those issues,before i even got started good in the steps,i was told that it was denial.i refused to listen,and ran on self will,refused to make meetingsor call my sponsor,and tried to sleep with all the opposite sex in the rooms,even after i was told to wait untill i worked the steps first.
well they were right.im not unique.i was high within a week,and my sponsor said he could no longer work with me because i had become toxic to him.all my freinds in recovery had to stay away from me because i was poison to them to,and the sponsors they had told them i was working my own program,not the na program...................
sheryl we all love you.your sponsor loves you.work the steps,then the program will work for you.dont set yourself up as being diferant.you deserve recovery.you arent unique.
put your program first,make meetings the way you see me and my sponsees make meetings.call women(yes women)every day.those guys that call you need to work there steps and not yours.
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
it was nice of you to get back to me I had a tlka with Mareen about this today when we met thankyou for your reply dalin wrote:
when i had those issues,before i even got started good in the steps,i was told that it was denial.i refused to listen,and ran on self will,refused to make meetingsor call my sponsor,and tried to sleep with all the opposite sex in the rooms,even after i was told to wait untill i worked the steps first.
well they were right.im not unique.i was high within a week,and my sponsor said he could no longer work with me because i had become toxic to him.all my freinds in recovery had to stay away from me because i was poison to them to,and the sponsors they had told them i was working my own program,not the na program...................
sheryl we all love you.your sponsor loves you.work the steps,then the program will work for you.dont set yourself up as being diferant.you deserve recovery.you arent unique.
put your program first,make meetings the way you see me and my sponsees make meetings.call women(yes women)every day.those guys that call you need to work there steps and not yours.
sheryl,i know you can do this thing.your disease wants you to die high,but i know that if you ask the women in the rooms of na for help,and ask God,and stay willing and teachable,you can do it.
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
dalin wrote: yes thats ture as I had got alot of help so far from Traria she's awsome whenever Maureen isn't around I talk with her she is so great into her recovery more then once when Maureen wasn't around she has helped me some are a little harsh though get angry with me when I ask for help so sometimes that does not help me then again it should becuase there just trying to tell me in there way that you need to shut up and listen I have not used I'm doing something right I pray I do step work but still I need coping skills I'm very shooked you have been reaching out to me thankyou very much I to be honest thought you didn't like some to me I feel can't stand me but I'm just doing the do things and trying to get better thats all whats so wrong about that? anyway thankyou again I guess this means we are cool again with eachother I'm so glad your still my boddy thankyou sheryl,i know you can do this thing.your disease wants you to die high,but i know that if you ask the women in the rooms of na for help,and ask God,and stay willing and teachable,you can do it.
sheryl no one has been mad at you.if poeple wouldnt have loved me enough to call me on non recovery oriented behavior i was doing(dope feind behavior),i wouldnt have the time i have.
it is a we program.the text says we are each others eyes and ears.for me to show you hatred by being quiet while i watch you relapse afer setting yourself up for it...well some areas have alot of clean time.our area doesnt.there are no na old timers here.we will be torontos old timers in 10 years .
we have to help each other.unity counts here.all for one and one for all.
put staying clean before anything else.call women like maureen says.i need you in my recovery,and i need you clean and happy,and working the steps
in case i want to use,so you can pull my head out of my ass.
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
Don't worry too much about these thoughts. They are not so weird as they seem to you, believe me. It's natural for an addict to think that they can now cope with the using friends and places associated with using, as they have been clean forawhile... But I have realized that this is how the disease of addiction, waiting subtly, for years sometimes, slowly makes its move, taking advantage of our complacency. Just because our mind says something, we don't have to believe it or act on it... We have a choice, to be free, and we can exercise this choice by rejecting what our mind says, and instead, do what our Higher Power wants us to do ~ STAY CLEAN, NOT ASSOCIATE WITH SLIPPERY PEOPLE AND PLACES, PUT OURSELVES IN THE ATMOSPHERE OF RECOVERY INSTEAD! We are powerless, no matter how long we stay clean. Just because I stay clean for many years, doesn't mean I have become powerful and can manage my disease of addiction very well. Staying clean is my first priority, and I must go to any lengths to do so, as my life depends on it... I can avoid people who drink and use, those places, whatever the consequences... as no consequence can be greater and more important to me than my relapse, which is actually losing my life. I cannot afford to play in a matter of life and death. I choose to live today...
I cannot stay clean today on yesterday's recovery...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
sheryl, many a times, in my early recovery, I thought no one really liked me, and they all seemed like irritating me with their advice sometimes. But later realized that they were all concerned, and were only wishing with all of their heart that I too stop using, like them, and find a new of life...
We are glad that you are here with us. We love you and we need you here.
Hugs and Love ~ Tahir.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Tahir wrote: hi still here still I gte alot of this it's hard to sit and wonder weather you are really liked espeacily when they at times get oyioed with you and start geting blunt which in that case they start to gte to me becuase I have a Disordor I suffer Depression and other things so things that that get to me I'm glad you reponsed back thankyou
sheryl, many a times, in my early recovery, I thought no one really liked me, and they all seemed like irritating me with their advice sometimes. But later realized that they were all concerned, and were only wishing with all of their heart that I too stop using, like them, and find a new of life...
We are glad that you are here with us. We love you and we need you here.
I need adivce on something my mind has been acting werid lately I feel as this program is working to well I feel I'm btter to go on now someone help me I'm so 
it was nice of you to get back to me I had a tlka with Mareen about this today when we met thankyou for your reply dalin wrote:
then again it should becuase there just trying to tell me in there way that you need to shut up and listen I have not used I'm doing something right I pray I do step work but still I need coping skills I'm very shooked you have been reaching out to me thankyou very much I to be honest thought you didn't like some to me I feel can't stand me but I'm just doing the do things and trying to get better thats all whats so wrong about that? anyway thankyou again I guess this means we are cool again with eachother I'm so glad your still my boddy thankyou 
I gte alot of this it's hard to sit and wonder weather you are really liked espeacily when they at times get oyioed with you and start geting blunt which in that case they start to gte to me becuase I have a Disordor I suffer Depression and other things so things that that get to me I'm glad you reponsed back thankyou 
