im ok.ive been really nervous casue i know i have to move by aug 30 and i dont have any money for about four more weeks.i know ill be ok cause im going to my brother in laws,but i almost feel like having a panic attack and i dont know why.i interviewed for a job i really want and ill probably hear this week aobut it,but im nervous and im not looking for chemicals but i have entertained thoughts.im buying candy and cookies and just letting myself let go that way a lot because im worried.im on welfare right now,but i know when i go to this other city its bigger and there's more jobs.i live in the mountains right now and im looking forward to being around more people in twelve step groups.im ok,i know its normal to be nervous about moving etc.i wrote to you about future dental work and worrying about pain med.i was addicted to pills.any suggestions?i dont want to relapse,thats how i lost my last job.thank you for asking.
but you will do fine...fire your worrior,because he gets in your way.
maybe you could commit to come in here daily and we can talk...kinda like what my sponsor calls a checkup from the neckup,and we can talk about these worrisome things and get them down to size.
we all love ya
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
thank you for taking the time.i know others have been down with some of the same feelings and im trying hard not to downward spiral into a pity party.im to alone and unstructured with now job right now,and therefore i seem to be fixated on some negative things.
i have some traits of a personality disorder that makes it hard for me to form relationships,and as an addict i know we all relate to feeling alone.ive read that so many times being expressed here.i had alot of depression this last year- i believe its a response to not dealing with my sisters death in 2004.we were close,and i feel a big gaping void without her here.i leave for my brother in laws before aug 30,and i want to go attend some new twelve step meetings.i met so many people that cared down there,that i know ill have people to call and talk to.i met several people in twelve steps that has lost a sibling,and they were alot of comfort even though i know they were struggling too.thank you dalin.
