that one simple word. 2 syllables(3 depending which system you use). its such a simple word that to many has no real meaning. but to an addict it is the biggest and worst word to hear. and its even worse to have to use. by now any addict knows the word im talking about. (relapse) NO ONE wants to hear it. and even fewer wanna have to say it when they enter a meeting(online or f2f) and are asked how they are or how much clean time they have. it is deadly to many. tho some people by pure luck can use that word and live to come back into an NA room or board. i now no longer have my 47 days. i have 1. it had me on my pity pot all of yesterday and part of today. till i made myself stop thinking so much. i talked 2 a friend who told me wut happened happened now i can stay flat on my back or i can get up, brush off, and start over. so i am back to 1. and it is 1 i have fought for. just as the others were. i WILL get back to where i was. and i WILL go further and stay clean. sre if i babled and thanks all.
""""""an addict who by any means can lose the need or desire to use and has free choice over impulsive thinking and compulsive action has reached a turning point that maybe the decisive factor in hi/her recovery """""
those lines from the chapter
RECOVERY AND RELAPSE
from the Basic Text is something that id byhearted and then muttered to myself whenever i could ,,,,,
-- Edited by Raman at 15:16, 2006-08-07
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!