i am 18 i have been clean 45 days today. i was in another online NA program and had a sponsor with them until my sponsor and i had some issues. i had a sponsor who told me 2 days ago that when i went to my first f2f i WOULD get phone numbers of all the women i WOULD call them all and talk to them and i WOULD pick a f2f sponsor. i had a panic attack really bad and when i told her that it was too much right now i was told i didnt have a choice and if i didnt and planned on continuing with an online sponsor it wouldnt be her. this devastated me. and since then alot of the group have found out bc she was one of their moderators. i have problems with meeting ppl and not freaking in the first place. in my life i learned not 2 trust, not even my own family. i let my ex-sponsor in and finally opened up 2 her and was hurt really bad. i was making 1-3 online meetings a day depending on my where abouts. i am on summer vacation and going away to college in less than 2 weeks and i checked there are NA meetings near campus(5 miles away) so i plan to go to them. i dont know wut else y'all wanna know. so i guess ask and ill tell if i can.
we are just glad you are here.i guess that we all try to give away what we have,and some times it is just a test of our willingness.
my old sponsor called it a; check up from the neck up;to see if i was willing to follow a few sugestions.
but we all move at our own rate.but as newcomer addicts that are trying to learn to stay clean...well our using has to be followed up with action.the deck is stacked against us...
but we all learn at our own rate.
if you want you can email my girlfreind.she has been around a while.she used an online sponsor with 20 years in this fellowship her first couple of years.the addy is
Yeah you stick around here its not a very busy place but something you can look foreward to going to daily. I also WELCOME YOU Tabby just stay clean and don't let people, places , things and situations run you off back to what you were doing before.
There's no time table for recovery, take things as fast or as slow as your comfortable with. When you do go to a FTF meeting try to raise your hand when they ask if there's any newcomers, you should get some pamplets maybe an newcomers keytag and a hug and phone number from the women at the meeting. Try to call 1. Remeber that a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Take a step even if it just a baby step and you'll start your journey. Good luck. Bob.
