I do believe in God and the afterlife,but I still have a hard time feeling meaningfulness in my prayers,at times.I had'nt prayed regularly in years,and I find I really have to force myself to focus and stay on track.I 'm told that if you keep practising this,that it will all fall into place and become easier.IM just glad I went to rehab,which brought me to N.A. and re introduced me to letting things go to God.I never realized how controlling I tried to be,for so long.I'm not even disiplined enough to do a good job of controlling.I could never really follow things through.I picked up a little booklet i had from N.a. today,and I started reading,and I knew it was a sign that I was on track again.I did that with the "big book" in A.A. when i would use thier twelve step meetings,i would have the book,try to force myself to read,and not be totally interested,and then one day after about three weeks of not "getting it" i picked up that big book and i couldnt put it down.thats how i felt reading that little N.A. booklet today,and it was a relief.there was a story about a nurse,and im a nurse and i felt like i was meant to pick that up and read it.i believe those are the suble miracles of being in a program,and having these healing things come into your heart.i was more secure and hopeful after i read,and i wanted to go to a meeting.i do remember to thank God everday for sobriety.When i can concentrate and pray for awhile,i feel my prayers are heard.my sister passed away of cancer two years ago,and i feel like she is helping me and listening,also.
nawol.....a chapter on a power greater than us.my girlfreind comes on here off and on she has some time in na,and would be happy to help you out if you need it.
you take care ok.
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dalin a unity means oneity...one god, one fellowship,one sponsor,one program...many gifts
Praying and then letting it all go and waiting for the answer has always worked for me !!
Like say i repeat the Serenity Prayer in context of something thats troubling me,, I repeat it,,, then let go and try to get Silent and Quiet within,,,,
then a Higher Power,,, a Power Greater than the disturbance and addiction speaks !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
john that's great.i hope that will happen for me.ikeep practising every night since i got out of rehab.the term spiritual connection is exactly what i would like to feel.
I wake up and pray and before bed and sometimes thru the day, just woke from a nap and happened to look at the crucifix near my bed and grabbed hold of it and asked to be forgiven and asked for care and direction and strength thru the rest of this day.
