My name is Raymond and I am 22 years old. I have 23 days clean and sober and I feel great.
I have struggled with drugs and booze for my entire life. I was always looking for the next best thing. Anything to give me what I was lacking internally and externally. I loved getting high, but it caused nothing but pain, drama and of course darkness in my life. Drugs and booze became the reason why I would wake up and functionl. I alienated people and put myself through hell.
I like to think that I am a smart guy. I also would like to think that I am making a smart decision by getting clean and sober. I know that I am. Recently I got a sponsor and am attending meetings. I feel great. It's not easy, but it's the right thing to do. I like the way I feel now.
I am going on 24 days soon, and I feel good. I also feel like there is a slump that I am hitting. Like my addiction is back from vacation. It never goes away, which is why meetings help so much. I know that I can do this and I want it more than anything I have ever wanted before.
I don't know why I am writing this...maybe just to vent. I feel great, but it's tough starting to feel again. I am angry for no reason and I get very jumpy.
Thank The Lord that there is a support system for me. I am not going to give up this fight. This is all that matters right now. It's what should always matter.
If anyone has any advice to lend me I would love to hear it. Thanks. Please keep me in your prayers.
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"These precious things...let them break their hold on me."
congrats! just keep going to meetings, either f2f or online and remember, just for today! I have 42 days clean and although I feel physically better than I have in years I understand the struggle. I just keep remember how bad I felt when i was using and know I NEVER want to feel that way again.
your in my thoughts
wednesday
A New Path wrote:
My name is Raymond and I am 22 years old. I have 23 days clean and sober and I feel great. I have struggled with drugs and booze for my entire life. I was always looking for the next best thing. Anything to give me what I was lacking internally and externally. I loved getting high, but it caused nothing but pain, drama and of course darkness in my life. Drugs and booze became the reason why I would wake up and functionl. I alienated people and put myself through hell. I like to think that I am a smart guy. I also would like to think that I am making a smart decision by getting clean and sober. I know that I am. Recently I got a sponsor and am attending meetings. I feel great. It's not easy, but it's the right thing to do. I like the way I feel now. I am going on 24 days soon, and I feel good. I also feel like there is a slump that I am hitting. Like my addiction is back from vacation. It never goes away, which is why meetings help so much. I know that I can do this and I want it more than anything I have ever wanted before. I don't know why I am writing this...maybe just to vent. I feel great, but it's tough starting to feel again. I am angry for no reason and I get very jumpy. Thank The Lord that there is a support system for me. I am not going to give up this fight. This is all that matters right now. It's what should always matter. If anyone has any advice to lend me I would love to hear it. Thanks. Please keep me in your prayers.
I give you a lot of credit ..believe me i know it was hard to do what you did...i have been struggling with those mind games too and i try to remind myself each time to remember how awful the drugs are ...your not alone and good for you that your being strong...you are in my prayers take care
