I'm new and been thinking about the issues I am having in my life. Most of my problems have evolved from substance abuse. The debt I have aquired in my life is because I always thought it was more important to have a social life than to pay credit cards.
Now I'm 27 and finding myself needing to find cocaine every time I drink. I can't even drink a few without needing that upper to make me feel right (whatever right is). I still have the same mindset that if I don't drink my friends will get on me about being a p****. I know not very good friends, but one friend praticularly has a very bad drinking problem.
I have a beautiful wife and son that I love more than anything, but when I do this crap I find myself having to talk myself down when I'm coming down. That is when its the worst. I have thoughts that I'm no good to them and that I don't deserve them. I want to kick both of these habbits and move on with a normal dependent free life.
I have heard over and over again, 'YOU CAN'T SAVE YOUR FACE AND YOU ASS AT THE SAME TIME" so which one is more important, you have your life ahead of you 27 years oid and seeking help for addiction, and don't forget "ALCOHOL" is a drug, it may be sold legally but it is still a drug. get to a meeting, don't take your siginifant other, you will understand why once you go. Save yourself and in return you will save your family. With love of the fellowship, Barbara P
