I just want to stress for all those who have ever relapsed I being one of them except for me it took me 14 yrs of being clean to fall into that category I found NA 18 yrs ago and stayed but in 2003 through not working the program of Narcotics Anonymous the spiratual principles ie the steps and the traditions the having a sponsor and calling that sponsor on a daily basis.
Thank God for NA and the steps I am back have almost 9 months and am currently on step 2 I am coming up on 9 months clean and my life today couldnt be any better. Relapse isn't a requirement but it does happen often but for me it was a wake up called I needed to get back to what for me in the beginning was to change they said there was only thing I had to change and that was everything and today just for today I am building a foundation I lost and for the newcommers life on lifes terms I know Its hard at first but one day at a time it gets better surrender is the key and once you've surrendered then and only then can one find peace and serenity remember we didnt become addicted in one day so easy does it thanks for this posting and I welcome all to respond to this love in God recovery and life David
I remember you from the loner group meeting by mail,,,
ive written many times to your !!!
remember those days of snail mail,,?
getting or sending a letter from or to you all was the high point of the day for this addict in a faraway place with no NA meetings !!!
And yes,, you are one of those that wrote me a lot of mail and helped me stay in recovery another day !!!!
God bless you buddy, keep coming back !!
Hugs
Raman an adddict
ps. if its any consolayion,, an ex sponsor of mine relapsed at 18 years clean !!and is still struggling to get back on the recovery trail,,,,thank God youre back !!!
wish you life long recovery and happiness !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Thank God you made it back. It just shows me how cunning, baffling, and powerful this disease really is! It also had to be very humbling for you. I admire your courage. I will keep you in my prayers!
Hi Dave. My name is Melinda and I just found this site. I attend AA, I have a sponsor and am following the suggestions. I am in recovery from a way of life...the outlaw life. I was out there for over twenty years...that is the only way I new how to live. I am having a hard time connecting with new friends in my new life...I don't know if it is because I am somewhat institutionalized from prison- or if it is a "natural" fear. All I know is that is what makes me relapse every three months or so. You know...to get that false feeling you belong. It's like I really feel alone working my program...yet I know it is the only way for me to reach God's purpose for me. I pray every day and every night..I do my meditatons..I pour coffee and greet...I offer to help others get to meetings...My home group is the oldest in Northern California...61 years old-they all love me and I am comfortable with a handfull....but I just don't feel the connection...it's tripping me out. But I am doing one day at a time motivated by the faith in if I do the action....then "it" will come. I just could use some advice, reassurance or something...from one drug addict to another. Thank you if you respond
Hi Melinda, I'm Bob an Addict living in Carmichael. Have you ever been to the "Addicts in Action" meeting on friday night. It's right off the freeway at the Greenback exit. Garfield past the theatre right on Spruce left into the church. Good luck.
Hi Melinda welcome home you,ll always have a place in NA or AA and you,ll always be welcome no matter what ,surrender is the key once you have done so and find a HP of your own understanding can be anything thats a power greater then you.
My life today is good and if I choose to go back to that old life I might not die right away but eventually I will.
I was in prison 18 yrs ago and thats what brought me to NA to begin with I was sick and tired of being sick and tired in and out of prison or jail I stayed around NA for 14 yrs but circumstances as like incorporating the spiratual princples to my life and not changing all those screwed up ways of life led me back to that life of hell my wife of 14 months left me and weeks later my dad died and I just gave up instead of reaching out to another addict i turned left instead of right and eventually boom back to that old lifestyle of the getting and using ways and means to get more one is to many a million is never enough.
Again welcome home and give yourself a break easy does it we didnt become addicted in one day so Just For Today you dont have to use even if u want to.
Hi Bob..thanks for the Addicts in Action referal...unfortunately I work a double on Fridays..don't even get home until midnight. But again..thanks for the input
Hello Dave..thank you for your reply. I know surrender is the key..is not that the same as turning it all over to my HP? All I know deep down inside is that I don't want my old life...and that I pray every morning and every night even if it is just going through the motions..I know it is God and only God that will and can save me from myself. I am doing better today...I REFUSE TO GIVE UP!! Thanks again...Melinda
