I came here 3 weeks ago on my first night of quiting a 3 year adddiction to oxycodone (At least 100mg a day for 3 years) .... well 3 weeks later I am still clean and Im definently feeling alot better then I was the first week.... But I still have no energy at all, everything I do is a struggle and I have to force my self to do EVERYTHING! LOL... But I didnt expect to still feel so bad! I have no appitite, some depression, but happy moments too... How long does this take to go away!!!!! (I quit cold turkey and have not yet been to any support classes etc.) Back 3 weeks ago I also posted about the state getting involved because I stupidly went to the E.R. for help (post below).... and in turn involved the whole family in this... This is one thing I am completely pissed off about because My kids did NOT know about our addiction... I did tell the older ones who are 20, 17, and 14 after the state told me that they more then likely knew anyway... THEY DIDNT! But they were great about it .. The 2 younger kids who are 11 and 7 are clueless... we did not run a drug house here! We didnt start taking those stupid pills because we were having any problems, as a matter of fact we started them in the best part of our life... (Our business took off , and thankfullly still is, we had just moved into a nice house etc.) we simply just liked the ay they made us feel! Now we have to go sit and talk to a physcologist .. And we have both never had any problems, Not in our childhoods and never in our 20 yr. marriage.. so I have no idea whats going to come of that..lol... at first they wanted to see the whole family, But as it stands right now It just going to be my husband and myself (hes also addicted and staying clean to)... I just want the kids out of this so bad... Its not right.. They live in a nice clean house, are well taken care of, have everything they could ask for ,They are spoiled! and the state has already seen and mentioned that they could tell they were taken care of... So Now they also want to send someone to the house once a month to make sure theres food etc. errrrrrrrrr... There will always be food here. We never got caught doing anything &voluntarily wanted to stop... (only because its so expensive and harder and harder to get...)... I honestly think i can get through this wiht out "NA" .. I dont think anyone could ever convince me to never go back on them more then the memories of all th times I ve gone through wihtdrawl... That fun memory is all I need to say no!!! Anyway just wanted to check in and vent.... lol sorry, But the state really pisses me off.... Back to my main question , Its been 3 weeks, WHEN am I going to feel better!!!!!!!! Thanks for listening!
It has been my experience that my drug addiction eventually effected every area of my life, and then some. NA is a way of life for me today. I have learned to live by spiritual principles by working the steps, sharing in meetings, and working with other recovering addicts. The power of choice left long ago. Today, I stay in the moment and try and do the next best indicated thing. Something about addicts coming together to help one another stay clean that works. You mentioned maybe not NA, if not then I hope you find your recovery somewhere, anywhere, just find it.
Because of the state problem & the kids Im being made to take NA... (But they call it voluntarally) I was just saying that even almost a month later i still have no desire to take anything.. I will never ever put myself through this hell again... Im just curious as to how long it will take to feel better physically? I was told 3-7 days... Over 3 weeks later although I can get out of bed and function , I still have NO energy and still have to force myself to do everything.. I am exhausted... shakey, etc. . Thanks for your reply...
When I went through withdrawals w/ the opiate family, I was told that I'd get repeat cases where about 2 months later than 6 months later, I'll feel as if i just just the drug and have no more... Drink LOTS of water, Plenty of sleep and youll feel better in no time <3 CONGRATS on being clean!its veryyyyyyyyy challanging
Hello Alex. Twenty one days...That's a lot for a recovering addict. I don't know you personally, but I'm proud of what you've done. Please, keep up the good work and let me know if you need anything!
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If you ever need to chat, let me know. Stay strong and God Bless you!http://www.sparkimg.com/emoticons/aww.gif http://www.sparkimg.com/emoticons/aww.gif
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"These precious things...let them break their hold on me."
Being clean for 21 days in my mind is a miracle...I also had the thought that I could quit without the meetings and NA, but the thing is, there is meetings and there are other addicts out there that can and will help you with your problem. The biggest problem I had in the beginning was underestimating the power of drugs and the true degree of my addiction. Maybe you can quit on your own without the help of NA and then again, if we are there for you why wouldn't you take advantage of us and hedge your bet so to speak the stakes are very high aren't they? nobody should have to be alone, and certainly it is better to go through this with others that are just like you! remember that the theraputic value of one addict helping another is without paralell...beleive it because it is true, so come to a meeting and give yourself a break and welcome home.
its veryyyyyyyyy challanging
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