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galeon


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i am really feeling abandoned by my higher power right now. my son and i have lived in this one bedroom apartment for  six years now and i hate this place and this town [my hometown] the last two moves i did when my son was little [he is 12 now] were disasters. people always say you are right where you are supposed to be, if that is the case then i feel like my higher power is punishing me. i miss having a yard and gardening ect. so much it actually causes a pain in my heart. it is way too expensive around here to rent a house, my option would be to move to a small town up country somewhere, but that doesn't seem like a good idea because my son is doing well at school has friends and i swore i would not move him around like what was done too me when i was a kid. i do want to give him a stable life as a kid , kids deserve that. i seem not to be able too make plan for anything cause i dont the difference between god will and my own will. i feel trapped. please give me some suggestions, thanks for listening.

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Raman


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Galeon,,, may I give you a hint ???


Extending what you shared about to the 11th Step,, it clearly says in the Text=


"Gods will for us is our own true will for ourselves"!!!!!!!


Which means finding a quiet place for myself each day or nite to hear the SILENT VOICE !!!!


Light a candle,,, say the NA Prayers,, share share share,,, but please dont lose hope !!!


Im going thur a housing sitiation myself and believe its baffling at times,,, but like you said your kid,my kid(im a single parent of a 10 year girl),, they need to set down some place,make friends,and feel security and belonging !!!


They can do that only if we set roots somewhere !!!


I hope it is appropriate ,,, ,,,


id  like to ask whether the work you do will afford you more earning like in overtime, bonus on performance etc,,, so you can be searching for a bigger place to live in !!!


 



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Raman


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My soul is crying,,,


cause the house where ive lived all my life,, with a backyard,garden,,


old style furniture etc which i began to appreciate in my   recovery,


is old and also in time for a reconstruction.


Now me and my brother being joint owners of this are looking at getting apartments going here and get a nice roomy one for each of us too and sell off the others ...


my heart yearns to keep this property intact by doing the prescribed renovations,, but HP hasnt blessed my with tha kind of money yet !!


My soul cries each time i think how im going to have to give up this old lovely house which has seen five generations of my family,,,,


brings to mind an old soul ballad=


everything must change,


nothing stays the same,


thats the ways of time,


noone and nothing stays unchanged,!!!!


the young become the old,,,


and mysteries do unfold ,,


,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,


there are not many things in life that you can be sure of,,,


cept that the rain comes from the clouds,


sunlight from the skies,,


and that humming birds do fly !!!!



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galeon


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it is my birthday today and i feel too young to be this old so i got the blues about a lot today, thankyou so much for your words raman . bless you.

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Raman


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Thanks for telling us,,, now I can give you a cyber hug and sing=


its a hap,hap happy birthday,,


may you live to be,, a hundred and three !!!


Happy birthday Galeon !!!


Hey by the way,, theres a lot of blues and country being sung on 12 Step Radio.


its www.12stepradio.com !!!


May the Love and Light of the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymousbe yours forever !!!



-- Edited by Raman at 14:00, 2006-05-22

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Tom B


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My sponsor has suggested to me to make a gratitude list when I have felt similar to what you are feeling.


Tom B


 



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