I am looking for a sponsor. I am having a hard time finding one. I'm 2 for 2 in that department. 1987 was when I went to AA. I had a sponsor but I couldn't talk about anything but alcohol without getting shut down. 4 yrs into the program I left because I couldn't be honest. I have been kind of stagnant. On June 2nd I finally gave up running and letting fear run my life. I gave up that day. It's been a little discouraging, I won't lie . I don't know.