This is my first time at this online, so I'm not sure what to say. I will start by stating that I am a cocaine addict I have been sober for 36 days. I attend alot of meetings here locally and enjoy them. I'm yet to find a sponser or whom someone I trust and wonder if that is all part of my addiction, but have decided to just give that all time, someone has to come along. This new way of life is often very scary for me and I feel overwhelmed at times. I'm glad that I found this sight and hope to hear from others. I am very openminded to anything that will help me stay clean. Thanks for listening---hope to hear from someone soon. Also can someone explain how this all works as far as being online like I said I'm new. Thanks Sophia
Sophia, It's good to have you here! Congratulations on 36 days!!!!
This board has been kind of quiet lately, but what we try to do is share our experience, strength and hope with each other. I undrestand the online meeting needs some support, I have other commitments on Wed (always) and Sat (usually) evenings, so it's hard for me to attend. If you wish to try an online meeting you will need to have java enabled on your browser, and go to (http://www.12stepforums.net/na/nachat.html). Meetings are Wed and Sat @ 9:00pm Eastern Time (US).
Not too odd having problems developing trust, it seems that addicts as a group tend to guard themselves closely. It will take a leap of faith to let someone else into your life, but once you do it will be wonderful. Scary and overwhelming are matters of perception, and I think we all have visited there when we are new, it's part of the territory. Change is always uncomfortable, even when I know that it is for the better. I remember how scary it was when I didn't know what to expect. Life does get better, you just need to stick around until the miracle happens.
Gotta go and get ready for my home group, hope to talk with you again,
Lon
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Hello, I'm new also, my name is Rebecca. My addiction was crack. I have 65 days clean. I never thought I would ever have that. It is so wonderful. I thank God every day for what I have now. I also thank the 12 step program of NA. With out these two thing I would not have 65 days clean. Just remember Just For Today and Easy Does It!!!!!
