Hello all! So I've been off of heroin for 9 months now. I've been living in my car for 12months. the first three months in my car I was using, and then I got on suboxone. Suboxone has been the only thing that has kept me clean in four years.. So I go to my parents after 9 months of being on subs and ask to come home because I want to find a job and start my life. my moms boyfriend says "quit saying you've been clean for 9 months, your on suboxone, that isn't clean"
i was heartbroken! I was proud of myself for a long time and then they said that. I wouldve agreed to go to meetings or whatever, but they tell me I need to go into detox for suboxone.
Right now I don't think I could stay clean without it. I want to have a job and my own place first. I need to have something to lose before I get off of them. I don't want to put myself in that spot where I'm able to use. They say it's a crutch, but why does that matter? At least I'm trying who cares if I need a crutch? Isn't that better then heroin?
so now I'm still homeless because I'm on suboxone. Am I wrong, or are they? I really want other opinions . Thank you
If you want what we have to offer, and are willing to make the effort to get it, then you are ready to take certain steps. These are the principles that made our recovery possible:
1. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4. We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. We admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. We made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
10. We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
This sounds like a big order, and we cant do it all at once. We didnt become addicted in one day, so remembereasy does it.
There is one thing more than anything else that will defeat us in our recovery; this is an attitude of indifference or intolerance toward spiritual principles. Three of these that are indispensable are honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness. With these we are well on our way. We feel that our approach to the disease of addiction is completely realistic, for the therapeutic value of one addict helping another is without parallel.
We feel that our way is practical, for one addict can best understand and help another addict. We believe that the sooner we face our problems within our society, in everyday living, just that much faster do we become acceptable, responsible, and productive members of that society.
The only way to keep from returning to active addiction is not to take that first drug. If you are like us you know that one is too many and a thousand never enough. We put great emphasis on this, for we know that when we use drugs in any form, or substitute one for another, we release our addiction all over again.
Thinking of alcohol as different from other drugs has caused a great many addicts to relapse. Before we came to NA, many of us viewed alcohol separately, but we cannot afford to be confused about this. Alcohol is a drug. We are people with the disease of addiction who must abstain from all drugs in order to recover.
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