"The Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous are a progressive recovery process established in our daily living."
Basic Text, p. 99
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After some time in recovery, we may find we are faced with what seem like overwhelming personal problems, angry feelings, and despair. When we realize whats going on, we may wail, "But Ive been working so hard. I thought I was..." Recovered, maybe? Not hardly. Over and over, we hear that recovery is an ongoing process and that we are never cured. Yet we sometimes believe that if we just work our steps enough, pray enough, or go to enough meetings, we'll eventually... well, maybe not be cured, but be something!
And we are something. Were recovering--recovering from active addiction. No matter what we've dealt with through the process of the steps, there will always be more. What we didn't remember or didn't think was important in our first inventory will surely present itself later on. Again and again, we'll turn to the process of the steps to deal with what's bothering us. The more we use this process, the more we'll trust it, for we can see the results. We go from anger and resentment to forgiveness, from denial to honesty and acceptance, and from pain to serenity.
Recovery doesn't happen overnight, and ours will never be complete. But each day brings new healing and the hope for more tomorrow.
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Just for today: I will do what I can for my recovery today and maintain hope in the ongoing process of recovery.
Yeah early on I remember sometimes thinking I'm trying so hard why is this happening to me? Poor me it's not fair! Well doo-doo occurs whether Clean or loaded whether addict or normy! Now I know ongoing challenges are simply a part of life, and aren't a bad thing but rather just a thing and opportunities for further growth. I know in my core as long as I do the footwork and leave the results in HP's hands all will work out in the long run.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA