Im an addict named Troy. Ive been in recovery for 27 months. Here of lately i have been finding it harder to reach out. Harder to go to meetings. I have been done writing on my 8th step for almost 4 months. I dont have that fire under me. I talk to my sponsor 4 or 5 times a week. Talk to other addicts everyday. I have 2 sponsees i work activley with. I love this fellowship. Im going to a big convention in the cincy area tomorrow with my sponsor. Ihave taken suggestions. The last 2 days i have gotten the hope back. All it took was some humility and reachng out. For anyone with a little clean time, like i have, if ou feel like youre loosing it, like you dont know why youre staying clean anymore. Hold on. The pain goes away. When i feel that way i know i have to look at what im NOT doing . That udally makes all the difference . Love all you guys. Glad this is here for me to reach out.
Troy I don't get out to as many meetings as I used to . But going to Conventions usually gives my recovery the boost I need plus meeting new people as seeing ones you know makes the whole thing work better.
-- Edited by cdbuckberry on Saturday 14th of February 2015 07:14:50 PM
I used when the sun was shining and when it was raining.
I have to work my program even when I don't feel like it.
Eventually, things turn around.
Keep coming back.
As in LIFE itself ,there will be times of ebb and flow,,for US,, we just don't use ,WE use the tools we have learned(remain in the solution(STEPS APPLIED IN ALL AREAS OF OUR LIVES)
,be guided by that Power greater than ourselves ,give back to the best of our abilities and continue to carry the NA message of HOPE and the promise of freedom by doing the daily work)Thanks for the positive message of Hope,keep doing the work..........
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Thanks everyone for the suggestions, my problem with applying the steps. I have wrote and went over 7 steps with my sponsor. I have wrote my 8th step. Havent went over it yet. I try my best to apply the steps. But, is that me applying the princples of that step? This is where i get confused. I tjink i over analyze things. Make the cmplicated, but this is a simle program, the human part makes it complicated. So maybe if that can be explaind to me a little better, i can understand. I want to know. I want to learn, my problem is wanting to know and learn everything right now, or i feel like im failing. Probably a defect of mine( instant gratification). Something im prettt certain we all suffer from. Thanks again for the suggestions. If anybody can maybe try to explan living the syeps to me. Thatd be great. Much love from indiana, im am addict named Troy.
Many have heard the refrain, that "For all the work I've done I shouldn't be feeling this way". Life is not about being perfect, it's about the willingness to improve. I'll never have nirvana, I'm always going to be a 'work in process'. When racing thoughts invade my sleep, I try to recite the steps and see how they apply to the feelings I'm trying to 'manage'! (Have you ever been able to think up a solution at night that applies in the day??) The analogy of a storm can be very helpful. We may want to give up as the storms of our feelings overwhelm us. It's not because they are so bad, it's because we think they will get worse and never pass. HOPE is believing that our HP will care for us, and give us the strength to continue onward.
For 20 years I stared at the serenity prayer in my house, never understanding it's meaning. Try this....
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can, and THE WISDOM TO KNOW IT'S ME!!
-- Edited by Davethewave on Wednesday 4th of February 2015 07:42:43 PM
